Wednesday, July 27th, I was inworld a few times during the day, but not for long. I checked messages, grabbed a group gift at XO, I visited a gallery and wrote the report … without Jenny my SL is quite different and I am very worried about what might have happened in RL. The uncertainty eats me up. One moment I see Jenny with me again and everything is fine again, the next moment I think about what if she doesn’t return. My family in SL, my friends, are very supportive and do their best to keep me busy – and yes they worry also about me. They know I’m not myself anymore. It is for them as well as for distracting myself and to avoid getting too much depressed that I go inworld and try to keep going. Now RL distracts me from SL. There is no second life, just one and SL is part of my real life, a joyful different world where we socialize and interact with people from around the world, where we live out our fantasies and dreams, no war, no climate change. And now? Without Jenny? Without knowing what happened? Without knowing if she’s doing well? I really don’t know!
July 27th: Missing Mistress Jenny (Mistress Jenny and Diomita at club DeLust Thursday, July 21st)
As mentioned above RL distracts me from SL now. I had a night out with friends and came inworld a bit later than usual. Flo, slave Holly, slave Alessi and slave Sakura (SakuraMatsumoto) were present. We chatted a bit, then began playing skipee as teams, slave Sakura watched silently kneeling leashed next to me. slave Holly and I were following the womens football game between Germany and France at the same time. Germany won and we looked forward to the final of the European Women Football Championships England vs Germany. YAY. We played two rounds and it ended literally tied up as each team won once by the same amount. It was already way after Flo’s bedtime when we finished playing. I took slave Holly, slave Alessi and slave Sakura to Carnal Intentions where we spent the rest of the night. The sub who I met a few days ago at DeLust and who I introduced with “A” into this blog showed up there too and knelt by my feet as well. slave Holly made me smile as she remarked, that by the time Jenny returns there might be a larger family. In my first years in Second Life, when Jenny was my married slave, Jenny used to ask about new sisters when she was not present due to RL work or other obligations. Sweet memories.
July 27th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions with slave Holly, slave Alessi, slave Sakura and “A”
Thursday, July 28th, I was inworld again several times during the day. I was at club Domme a Domme for maybe 20 minutes. But I couldn’t get my mind free and sadness overwhelmed me. In the later afternoon I changed into my simploring clothes and visited Endless: Birdlings Flat (read here). That was a welcomed distraction and writing about it brought me to other thoughts.
July 28th: Diomita simploring Endless: Birdlings Flat
When I came inworld at night, none of the family was present yet. I went to club DeLust and after I finally had rezzed there and had sat down in one of the chairs, Flo came inworld. I decided to let her have a game of skipee alone first and to watch the world go by at the club for a few minutes before I returned home. slave Holly had come inworld as well just in time, so that we could play a game with three. While we played I prepared a theme for the upcoming Friday night party the next day and was just about to finish it when Virgo came inworld and told me that she wouldn’t make it to the party. We decided to postpone the party to Saturday instead.
After the game I took Flo and slave Holly to club DeLust where we stayed about half an hour and chatted amoung us while we watched the silent crowd. Flo left at her usual time and I stayed at the club with slave Holly.
July 28th: Diomita at club DeLust with Flo and slave Holly
I returned home with slave Holly. slave Sakura was there and I grabbed her leash and took her with us to the toilet box. slave Holly got her treat. She was eager for it as she hadn’t had one for a while. slave Sakura also got a little treat as I stuffed her mouth with my used panties. I was up to get spoiled myself and allowed slave Holly not only to clean me but also to lick me to an orgasm.
After this little session we chilled for 15 minutes at Carnal Intentions before we went to bed.
July 28th: Diomita at home at at Carnal Intentions with slave Holly and slave Sakura
I miss Mistress Jenny terribly! Ending my night without her is just horrible. I can’t really put in words my worries and thoughts.
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