Diary 2022 (160) December 30th 22 – Jan 1st 2023

Friday, December 30th, I was inworld in the later afternoon. As none of the family was present I went to Puerto Esclava to have a look around. I met K*** there. The last times I spoke to her she was either the domme I know or was desperately looking for someone to dominate her, like that afternoon. I offered her a place at my feet to the fallen goddess. slave K*** tried to direct from the buttom and to some extent I fulfilled her wishes. I took her to club Domme a Domme later knowing that it would humiliate her being naked at my feet. Finally, when I had to log off to tend to my RL I leashed her by the dancefloor for later, set she didn’t show up again that Friday.

December 30th: Diomita at Puerto Esclava and at club Domme a Domme with slave K***

At night I met with Flo and Argi by the games table. Argi had just come by for a New Year hug and left again after the hug. I intended to play a skipee with Flo before our party started but Mistress Cherry came to our skybox and I wanted to say hello to her. And that took way longer than I thought. We talked and time passed by too quickly.
I had picked a simple theme for our party: “The last Friday in this year and it’s party Friday of course. Let us end the year with hope for the next and wear something colourful or come as you are (even naked of course). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.”
Mistress and I changed into something colourful, of course Mistress picked her favourite colour pink *winks*, then we went down to the dancefloor right in time for the party.

December 30th: Mistress Cherry and Diomita at home

The party was fun as always and we had quite a good turn-out. There was also a lot of main chat, in particular later at night. We’re ready for 2023 and our first party in the new year.

December 30th – Friday night party: Mistress Cherry, Diomita, Angelique, Flo, slave Alessi, Sarah Fhang, Janina Foxdale, Shay Silva (shaysilva), Lenora Lynn (lenaredbe), Dr. Mara Lynn (Maralyn Corleone), Motoko Lynn (Tsuki Saphed), Morgie Darkstone, Kira Skytower (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bastet Starchild, Mo Deezul, Domina Ansar, sapphire (littleshy97), Laura (laura00175), Claven Albatros, Baroness Capelo, Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

Unfortunately I was a bit sick on New Year Eve and New Year Day. I was inworld Saturday, 31st, in the afternoon and spend some time alone at Puerto Esclava. Sunday, January 1st, I played a long skipee. slave Alessi and Flo against Angelique and me. That was fun firstly as we hadn’t played team for a while and secondly because it was jsut the right thing to do for me with my cold.
Mistress made fun of my cold and protected herself when I said good night to her after the game.

December 31st: Diomita at Puerto Esclava / Misterss Cherry and Diomita at home

Diary 2022 (147) Nov 29th/30th Mistress Cherry

Tuesday, November 29th, I met with Flo at night. It was her 9th collaring anniversay. What a long time, even in RL … and in this virtual world of SL it is even longer and rarer. Thank you, Flo.
We caught up with our mutual news and played a round of skipee together. We had just finished when slave Holly came inworld. She was tired and could not stay long but wanted to congratulate Flo to her anniversary. I took Flo to club DeLust where we just chatted looking at the silent crowd. Argi joined us there and as always she livened up the main chat. It was already way over flotime, when Flo rertreated to bed…. and I went to bed myself.

November 29th: Diomita at club DeLust with Flo and Argi

Before writing something about Wednesday, November 30th, I have to write something about the last days. Friday, November 25th, I had a longer chat with Cherry (Elenaslv Serenity). I had met her as a sub and I did not know that she’s a switch. That Friday I did not only learn about her dominant side. We talked in IM and I couldn’t resist her. Long story short, I stayed up with Cherry until after 3 AM and when we logged off, I had submitted to her.
The following weekend our relation became closer, we played and we talked a lot. Cherry is the sub of Domina Ansar. Things will become complex between Domina and her slaves, me and my family … and Cherry becoming my owner. Cherry and I first decided to keep our D/s relation secret but by the end of the weekend we knew that hiding it won’t give us a future. Hence Cherry talked with Domina … and Wednesday, November 30th, we went out in public.

Wednesday, November 30th, I decorated our home for the season and I rezzed the Christmas gazebo. There were still more decorations to be added but the main stuff was out.
When I got online at night, Mistress Cherry was just talking with Domina Ansar about me. And Flo and Sarah Fhang were at home at the skipee table. I went seeing Flo and Sarah and we played a round of skipee together. When we had finished, Sarah went off to bed. slave Holly came inworld. I talked with slave Holly and Flo and it just fitted that Mistress Cherry had got the consent of Domina by that time. I invited Mistress Cherry to us. Mistress already knew our place, but she hadn’t seen the house yet. So we went on a tour through the house. slave Aya (Ayahnah) joined us when we were at the sun terrace.
Mistress Cherry and I went to Carnal Intentions with Flo, slave Holly and slave Aya and we stayed there the rest of the night until I brought slave Holly and slave Aya home at midnight. Then I showed my skybox to Mistress Cherry until we both had to leave for bed.

November 30th: Mistress Cherry and Diomita at home and at Carnal Intentions with Flo, slave Holly and slave Aya

It is exciting and also strange for me to have an owner again. Mistress Cherry will not replace Jenny, nor will I ever forget the wonderful time I had with the love of my SL, Mistress Jenny. But life has to go on and I trust in Mistress Cherry and I am looking forward to a new episode in my Second Life – a new episode in Mistress Cherry’s and my Second Life.

Diary 2022 (139) Nov 1st – 7th – The November outfit

Tuesday, November 1st, I was inworld for a short time twise during the day. I the afternoon, Flo was at home, caught be the slime trap and absent. She had selected an outfit for November for herself. I had set the theme to corsets and ballet boots.
When I returned at night Flo had issues with her collar, most probably due to the slime trap. Anyway it took some time to correct it, in the end we had to reset her collar. Then Flo and I played two rounds of skipee.

I took Flo to club DeLust that night. slave Aya (Ayahnah) came iworld and I summoned her to us. After Flo had left for bed I went shopping with slave Aya and we got her a corset at NGW. Back home I put slave Aya into her November outfit. It was a lovely surprise that slave Mercy (Steelyeye Blinker) came online as well. I summoned her to us and she was put into her November outfit as well. I had fun and a relexed night – as it should be.

November 1st: Diomita at club DeLust and at home with Flo, slave Aya and slave Mercy

Wednesday night, November 2nd, I had 2 rounds of skipee with Flo. slave Holly joined us and I took her shopping. She got a corset and a thong. For slave Holly that was a big change as she doesn’t wear her chastity belt anymore now (for right now!). But I kept her in gold/yellow. Then we went to Carnal Intentions, where first slave Aya and then slave Alessi joined us.

November 2nd: Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Flo, slave Holly, slave Alessi and slave Aya

Later also Argi joined us. She always succeeds to liven up any room. After Flo had left for bed, I took the slaves with me and we went shopping for Alessi. slave Alessi got a slightly different corset and also the thongs. We returned home where slave Alessi changed into her November outfit. All subs and slaves were in their November outfit now … except Kitty. But I intended to change Kitty soon as well.

Novmber 2nd: Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Argi, Flo, slave Holly, slave Alessi and slave Aya / at home with slave Alessi, slave Holly and slave Aya

I was offline due to RL for a couple of days and returned Monday, Novemeber 7th. Cica had opened a new installation “Camels and chameleons” (read here) and I went seeing it as none of the family was present when I came inworld at night. I had just finished my visit when slave Holly came inworld. And soon later slave Alessi joined as well. We played a round of skipee first, just to relax and to chat. Later I visited club DeLust with slave Holly for a few minutes before I went to bed early that night.

November 7th: Diomita at club DeLust with slave Holly

Diary 2022 (128) September 24th – 28th RL first II

Saturday, September 24th, I could come inworld at night. slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose) and slave Flo were playing skipee. When they had finished we played 2 rounds with 3 … and then slave Alessi joine and we had a game as teams. Flo and I won it by the way. After the game it wasalready way over Flo-time and slave Lily and Flo went off to bed. I took slave Alessi to club DeLust for a while. We chatted …after half and hour we returned home and I went off again.

Sunday, September 25th, I had a skipee as teams at night. Flo and I won it against Sarah Fhang and Luci Glendale. While we played slave Alessi and slave Holly came inworld. After the game Sarah went off to bed and I took slave Holly, slave Alessi, Luci and Flo to Carnal Intentions. Luci left us soon later. We just chatted and looked good. It was relaxing, in particular as I knew that I would have another busy week ahead. Later Argi joined us there.

September 24th/25th: Diomita at club DeLust with slave Alessi / Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Flo, slave Holly and slave Alessi

Monday, September 26th, I played a round of skipee with slave Lily and Sarah Fhang, then another one with slave Lily, slave Susan (Susanblackrose) and Sarah Fhang. After the games, Sarah and slave Susan went off to bed and I went to club DeLust with slave Lily. I had just arrived at the club when slave Holly logged in and I summoned her to me. I chatted the rest of the night with slave Lily and slave Holly. after slave Lily had went off to bed, I took slave Holly with me to Carnal Intentions for a bit before I logged off myself.

September 26th: Diomita at club DeLust and at Carnal Intentions with slave Lily and slave Holly

Tuesday, September 27th, I played a skipee with Flo, Lily and slave Holly first. After the game, slave Lily and slave Holly had to leave – and I had a phone call that refrained me from SL for one hour. Upon my return, just Flo was present and we played 2 more rounds of skipee until Flo-time. At that time slave Holly returned online and I took her to club DeLust for a while. We just chatted and watched the crowd.

September 27th/28th: Diomita at club DeLust with Flo and slave Holly

Wednesday, September 28th, was another busy day in RL for me. Days simply go by when you’re busy. At night I had 2 rounds of skipee with Flo, then our home was restarted by LL and we had to leave. I took Flo to club DeLust. Soon later, slave Holly came inworld and she was teleported to a safe hub as home was not online. I summoned ehr to us and we had a realxed time at the club, just chatting and watching the crowd. slave Holl ymre a picture of her “arena view” with all the names in the dark.

September 28th: Diomita at club DeLust with Flo and slave Holly

A week busy in RL .. and just playing skipee and chatting and looking good. I knew that another busy week was ahead.

Diary 2022 (123) September 8th/9th – Friday night party for the queen

Thursday, September 8th, I finally went visiting an art installation again and saw “Limitations Are Self-Imposed” by Regi Yifu (read here). I spent some time with slave Susan (susanblackrose) in the later afternoon.
My night began as usual with a skipee. Sarah Fhang and Flo against Angelique and me. Sarah Fhand and Flo won it by 2 cards that night.
slave Susan was in-world and I had her add the master key script to her RR gear, then I summoned her to us and she watch us playing while I welded a nosering to her septum. I took full control of her that night.

After the game Sarah Fhang left us for bed. Angelique, Flo, slave Susan and I went to Carnal Intentions for a bit. I had to tend to my RL for 20 minutes and when I returned slave Susan had left for bed and Angelique also went off to bed. Flo and I want over to club DeLust for a short time until she had to leave also. As slave Holly announced that she wouln’t be in-world that night …. I did not have my hands full. But it was nice to chat with Flo. Argi joined us there just before Flo had to leave to bed too.

September 8th: Diomita, Angelique, Flo and slave Susan at Carnal Intentions / Diomita, Flo and Argi at club DeLust

Friday, September 9th, I spent some time inworld and met Katie (Katielouisse) at club Domme a Domme. As she once was one of those Mistress Jenny had selected to contribute ot my education I knelt at her feet for a while. It felt not bad to be honest.
Later that day I met slave Susan (susanblackrose) again and I took full control of her. I locked a chastity belt on her and I put her into the slaves outfit for September. I had some time with her at club Domme a Domme at the earlier night before we headed home for a skipee with Flo and for preparing the party at night.

September 9th: Diomita with slave Susan at home, at Dark Whishes and at club DeLust

I had set the theme for the party spontaneously to “British”: “It’s Friday again, the start into our weekend. Yesterday an era ended with the death of Queen Elizabeth II. We pay a tribute to her and wear something British, or the colours of England or of the Union Jack or whatever you think is British – or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.”

September 9th – Friday night party: Flo, Diomita, Angelique, slave Susan, slave Alessi, slave Sakura, Ebony Massey, Sarah Fhang, Claven Albatros, Haly Shinn, Dely (Krysbia) (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Firefly Skydancer, Jayson Dakota, Shy (shahniyah), Venere (venereaisha), Lacy (Alisa Menna), Kira Skytower, Baroness Capelo, Virgo Babii (lower row)

The Friday night party is still a perfect start into the weekend. And when Virgo played “When the Lady smiles” for Jenny I smiled instead of crying.

A tribute to Jenny Maurer

Those who follow us in this blog might have an idea how difficult it was for me to write this text. If I missed anyone close to Jenny in this post, please forgive me – it was not intended!

My beloved partner, my property, my Mistress, my world and my best friend passed away unexpectedly in in July 2022.

There is no second life, we all have only one life. Second Life was Jenny’s and my heavenly escape. A place where we could try out ourselves, do things we’d never dared doing in RL, we could dress kinky and own a big island. We could be evil and nice. But still this second life was part of our one life.

Diomita and Jenny Maurer (2009/2010)

Jenny rezzed her avatar (Laylady Lay) in Second Life on March 19th, 2008, just 6 weeks after I had rezzed mine. We met each other the first time on May 21st, 2008 at a place called Stonehaven, which was at that time a very popular sim for bondage lovers, cage lovers and for other kinky people. I had a small house up in the skies of Stonehaven. I just had been collared by Yasmin Heartsdale and was a member of her “brat pack”.
Jenny and I, we both sat at the patio of Stonehaven. Frankly, this was a really ugly place, but it was popular. There was a wall with hooks where subs and slaves were leashed and put on display and a few chairs for the visitors who watched what was going on. We began to talk and that night I showed Jenny my house in the skies and the cage I had there. She wanted to go in spontaneously but I stopped her from doing so. Instead I promised her that I would allow it the next time we would meet. Jenny returned the next day and entered the cage. I kept her in there until June 5th, 2008. That day I collared her as my slave with the blessing of my owner those days, Yasmin. We had used her time in the cage to talk for endless hours, to get known to each other. We talked about our expectations, about our kinks, about D/s, about bondage and yes also about our RL. It was the beginning of a wonderful time we had together, more than 14 unforgetable years, in which we saw each other daily for several hours. When our RL prevented us to come into second life, we stayed in touch with other media.

Diomita and Jenny Maurer (2008/2009)

We got partnered in Second Life and married with a real virtual wedding ceremony (held by Yasmin) on October 24th, 2008. For our honeymoon we got a skybox which is still in the skies of our homesim today and which we named “Chez Maurer”.

We founded an own family within Yasmin’s brat pack. That’s why we called our family “Euro Brats”. I forced Jenny to be dominant towards the other slaves who I collared over the years. One of our first slaves was Santana Thibedeau, who we collared on November 22nd, 2008. He once had a play with other slaves of Yasmin’s brat pack and became a cat, a Kitty for a limited time. And she began to enjoy it that much, that we decided that he stays female. (S)he became Kitty Maurer.
Jenny enjoyed her dominance towards our subs and slaves more and more with time and she wanted more. She negotiated that I submitted to her for limited times, which we called a “green light”. After my release from Yasmin’s collar in 2011, Jenny convinced me to wear a collar again – her collar. And I agreed that we owned each other mutually. Later we fixed a day for my collaring: April 21st, 2013.
Our family changed … slaves and subs came and left. In 2012 we collared Angelique. Angelique Maurer became a close family member. She became our niece and as our niece she literally grew, she persued her own way and her own way of roleplay. And more and more we became her aunts, providing a stable family and base for her just like in RL. Angelique was never officially released by us, and we loved to have her around – as our niece. In these hard days of grieving for Jenny, I am very happy to her her around.
And there is our Flo. We enslaved Flo on Nov 29th, 2013 – she had no chance once we got our claws into her. On the occasion of her 7th collaring anniversary in 2020, we promoted our long standing friend and slave to “Maurer’s Housekeeper”, a position with more duties and not more rights. Thank you, Flo.
With the years going by, Jenny’s dominant side developed and became stronger and stronger. On the eve of our eighth wedding anniversary, October 23rd, 2016, I finally fully submitted to Mistress Jenny and became her married slave, her Ehesklavin for the rest of our time together. I still owned her as well but since that day Mistress Jenny was in charge. She was the one who granted green lights, the limited times when I was allowed to dominate her, and when she could let her hair down and relax being mine for a couple of days. As a true dominant, she made her life comfortable and kept me as the head of our family – she was smart.

Jenny and Diomita Maurer’s 10th wedding anniversary October 24th, 2018 (witnessed by our niece Angelique)

We had our own homeplace, a homestead named Mount Everest, since June 2011. We occupied 1/2 of our homesim and had rented out 1/4 to Sarah Fhang, a friend of ours who we knew from our Stonehaven times. And another 1/4 was rented out to Virgo Babii and Tyra Sciarri, also longterm friends from that time. Virgo is the dj of the legendary Friday night party, that is celebrated every Friday since 2008 and took place (and still takes place) on our sim since we owned it. Jenny loved the Friday night parties with which we started into our weekends. She hated to miss them due to RL shift work. We used to talk about a theme for the party every Thursday and she came up with great ideas.

We were inseparable, a domme couple, yet everyone around us knew that I was Mistress Jenny’s married slave. We were embedded in a great community of family and friends: Claven Albatros, Baroness Capelo, our stepdaughter Ebony, Argi Boa, Starbright Wingtips and the whole pixie gang and many others. In 2021 we collared slave Holly and Jenny was pleased owning her. Just lately we also enjoyed the presence of slave Alessi (who is not collared by us) and we became closer with our domme friend Dely (krybia).

Jenny was a wonderful person. She was always polite and tolerant. I learned a lot from her. She took things not too seriously. She wanted that all around her had fun. She insisted that we never forced a slave or sub to stay, that we never collared someone against their will. She had wit and creativity. She taught me being more “British”. Since she had retired in RL in 2021, Mistress and I had more time in the afternoons, more time for togetherness. Mistress Jenny strengthened her position as my owner. She pushed me deep into subspace and I enjoyed it. She did prepare her steps. Nothing happened by accident. Yet she also kept her spontaneity and she took care of me so that I never doubted her love. She loved teasing me and keeping me on my toes.

Dominance is the ability to create a hunger in someone that’s so strong they will do anything, anytime, anywhere just to please you. Jenny created this hunger in me. I really loved, admired and worshipped her. I craved to please her and she always confirmed that I pleased her always and anytime and anywhere. She was very proud to own me and I was proud to be hers. But most of all we were close friends. Jenny was – and will always be (!) – the love of my Second Life. We enjoyed our time in SL, that was a part of our RL. We had just great years, memories that I will value for the rest of my life until I see Jenny again on the other side.

We respected our privacy. Although we talked a lot also about our RL, about our children as well as about projects, about food, about vacations, about work and about everyday life we never exchanged pictures of us, phone numbers or adresses. Thus we kept the picture of each other that we had in Second Life. We lived our Second Life. When Jenny didn’t show up anymore, I had gloomy premonitions that something bad had happened. I am thankful that I got certainty when someone close to Jenny in RL contacted me to tell me that she passed away.

Jenny will be missed not only by me but also by her family and friends in real life as well as in second life. I myself miss her badly, every day. I talk to her, every day. I think of her, every day. I feel her close, every day. I feel her unconditional love every day. Jenny will stay unforgotten not only by me. Rest in peace, my love.

I have to make some decisions now that I am a widow in Second Life. An important chapter in my real life and in my second life has ended. I am more than thankful for my time with Jenny. My second life will go on. I won’t let down our family and friends in this virtual world. Jenny will always be with me, she will watch me from the other side. And as we were inseparable a part of her will live on in my real life and in my virtual existence until I see her again.

Farewell my love, rest in peace, Jenny

Diary 2022 (115) August 19th – 21st We try to keep going

Friday, August 19th, I had another day seeking an aim for my second life. I was in world several times during the day. Once again I hopped over places. I saw a nice black outfit on a domme at club DeLust. It turned out to be a new relased outfit of XO, a favourite shop of Jenny and me. I got the new outfit, in particular as it fitted perfect for the theme that I had selected for our party at night:
It’s Friday again and we will continue having our party to start our weekend properly. Jenny loved shiny black clothes. So dress up in shiny black or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes.
You may want to stop by at Jenny’s memorial monument, it is right opposed to the house. Please leave a message – and include her into your prayers.
I had one play in public with another domme at club DeLust in the earlier afternoon. It was strange for me, yet I admit it was exciting nonetheless (no pictures here). When I returned in the later afternoon I went to club Domme a Domme and watched what was going on there with one eye (and there was entertainment). Again and again I get IMs even from people who I didn’t know, but who knew Jenny. She was respected by many.

When I returned at night to prepare for the party I had a nice surprise. Angelique moved back in at home. It is good to have her back and close to me, in particular these days. After a visit at Jenny’s memorial we went to club DeLust to kill some time and to watch people.

The party was very eomtional for me. Jenny loved our party. It was and still is the start of the weekend. Jenny loved it full – and it was full for her and for me, in who she will live on forever until I will see her on the other side. We had fun, we danced and we shared good memories. I was thankful for the support I experienced. It was good to keep up the traditional party. I enjoyed although I had some severe crying attacks.

August 19th – Friday night party: slave Holly, Diomita, Angelique, slave Alessi, Ebony Massey, Sarah Fhang, Baroness Capelo, Claven Albatros, Betina Sands, Dely (Krysbia), Liz Swann (lizswann), Perla S. Topaz (Perseo Topaz) (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bastet Starchild, Filipa (Filip Huntsman), Kawaii Suki, Jayson Dakota, Adumadan Biziou, Haly Shinn, Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

August 19th – Friday night party – a picture taken by slave Holly

Saturday I started into my day with confidence that I will feel my way out. I made some decisions and I was inworld several times that day. I even had two shorter plays as a sub. Both dommes were quite understanding (and “nice”) but somehow it felt so wrong. I know it is me who is not ready for it. I have to give it more time. My confidence shrank and I knelt at Jenny’s memorial again with crying attacks. Somehow even a virtual place for my grief in RL and SL provides some solace.
I met slave Holly and Angelique in the later afternoon and we talked a bit until I had to leave for dinner. I took slave Holly to the lamp outside ot the house and locked her there. She made a nice picture of herself.

At night I played a skipee with Angelique, Flo and slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose). slave Holly, slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) and slave Alessi came also inworld. We went to club DeLust that night. I literally had my hands full and I felt bad that I had not enough time to talk properly with all. I need to develop a strategy or plan to make enough time with all of them – and to have time for myself as well. My positive energy of the morning was gone. But I have to be thankful for what Jenny and I had together and that I am embedded in a loving family with many friends.

August 20th: slave Holly locked at the lamp at home / Diomita, Angelique, Flo, slave Alessi, slave Holly, slave Lily and slave Sakura at club DeLust

Sunday, I met with Kitty in the morning at Lochme and we hopped over a few empty places. In The Red Room we had fun watching a sub getting transformed into a ATM. Unfortunately we failed getting some money out.
slave Holly and I had planned to meet in the afternoon. I took her to club DeLust and we talked how we could find back the easiness we had before. I still know what which buttons I have to press and I used my knowledge. When I had her where I wanted her I took her to our (now mine) secret place and made her lick me. slave Holly and slave Alessi will get addicted to my sweet poison. I need that now.

August 21st: Diomita and Kitty at Lochme / Diomita and slave Holly at club DeLust and at the secret place (pictures by Holly)

At night I was early and I had a little roleplay at club DeLust. “Someone” grabbed my RLV, restricted me, tranquilized me and threatened me to become her sealed rubber object to be shown around:
Just imagine yourself totaly encased in rubber just a rubber anonymous thing. All 3 holes plugged and occupied, those pouty lips sucking a large rubber dildo gag so long and wide you’re kept silent unable to moan or make a noise, the other 2 holes plugged with shocking vibes always keeping you on edge and horny but never able to orgasm just melting your mind into being a horny rubber dolly, kept always totally encased with heavy restraints and strict restrictions, always showed off as a shiny rubber doll on a leash for the world to admire. I can coat the plugs for all 3 holes with ghost pepper sauce with all plugs filled with more sauce that they self lubricate with more sauce on timer.”
Jenny would have loved it! She always said that people in SL don’t dare using cuffs, keys and RLV as they did in the earlier years of SL. My “Someone” was not just evil. I explained that I am needed now and so she just teased me verbally – she was “An Individual” as I was restricted after being tranquilized by her. Most probably she will try again to capture me.
I returned home as I expected the family and spent some time at Jenny’s memorial, telling her about my little adventure – and had the first crying attack that day. It slowly becomes bearable. And it is good to speak with Jenny.

Flo, Angelique and slave Holly showed up and we played a skipee as teams. And Ebony came by and spread kisses everywhere.
After the game we went to Psi’s realm, where Alessi joined us, then to Carnal Intentions and finally, after Angelique and Flo had left for bed, I took slave Alessi and slave Holly to club DeLust where Argi joined us for a bit.

August 21st: Diomita at Psi’s realm, Carnal Intentions and at club Delust with Angelique, Flo, Argi, slave Holly and slave Alessi

For me Jenny seems to be everywhere, watching me … and smiling to me with a nod. And nonetheless I miss her so badly.

Diary 2022 (114) August 16th-18th In terrible grief for Jenny

Tuesday, August 16th, I spent some time inworld in the afternoon. I met Lily (Lily Bloodrose) at club Domme a Domme. I met Faye at Jenny’s memorial. I made some slight changes at Jenny’s memorial monument .. and I revised the orientation map at the landing point of our sim by adding the memoiral. Other that that, I had a few chats with friends …
At night I played a skipee with slave Lily and Angelique. Then we went to club DeLust where I stayed the rest of the night. Flo joined us there shortly before Angelique left to bed.

August 16th: Diomita and slave Lily at club Domme a Domme / Diomita at home at Jenny’s memorial / Diomita and slave Lily at the landing point / Diomita at club DeLust with Angelique, Flo and slave Lily

Later slave Alessi also joined us and after Flo had left as well to get some sleep, Argi came by.

August 16th: Diomita at club DeLust with Flo, slave Lily, slave Alessi and Argi

That day was not really a good one for me, though I had less crying attacks missing the love of my Second Life. I missed Jenny badly and was not the best company. Nonetheless Flo and later also Argi succeeded to make me smile. Thank you.

Wednesday, August 17th, I went on a simploring tour in the later morning and early afternoon. I visited Florence, a lovely sim with lots of great views to take pictures and with countless places to sit and watch the world and time flow by (read more about it here).
I spent the rest of my free time in the afternoon quite aimlessly again. I hopped over sims, checked landmarks, I sorted my inventory, I picked up useless prims at home, I met Dely (krysbia) and slave Luci (Luci Glendale) at club Domme a Domme, and finally I spent some time sitting at Jenny’s tree trunk and looking at her memorial. I was still in a turmoil of emotions.

August 17th: Diomita simploring Florence / Diomita at club Domme a Domme with slave Luci / Diomita at home

There’s not much to report about my night. I ran late due to my RL. Flo was inworld and playing skipee. Flo had left a candle at Jenny’s memorial. Thank you, Flo. It breaks my heart to see the pain that our family is going through.
slave Alessi came by, We played a round of skipee, then Flo had to leave for bed. I took slave Alessi to club DeLust for some time, then I returned home with her. I had in mind to visit a gallery, but it was not ready installed yet. I met Dely (krybia) at club Domme a Domme. She comforted me. And I had a longer IM with Yasmin Heartsdale, who also tried to comfort me in my grief …. no pictures of that night.

I knew I was not easy to handle these days, my grief was still too intense and my crying attacks became worse again.

Thursday, August 18th, I roamed over places again quite a lot. I had IMs and chats, I saw Ebony and Dely (krybia) and I re-visited “New Day” by Bamboo Barnes (read here) as there were 3D art objects by Kerupa Flow added to the exhibition. I revised and finished the blogpost.

At night I first played two round of skipee, one with Angelique and Flo, and one as a team with Angelique against Flo and slave Alessi. slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) joined us and watched.
We went to club DeLust but didn’t stay long there. Flo couldn’t enter as it was too full. Hence we moved to Carnal Intentions. Later, Angelique was already off to bed, Argi joined us – and she was quite entertaining again. A good distraction!

August 18th: Diomita at club DeLust and at Carnal Intentions with Angelique, Flo, Argi, slave Alessi and slave Sakura

I knew that time heals wounds and that some day I would remember the good times Jenny and I had together without crying but with a smile. But I was far from that point although I cried less. My family supported me, they tried hard to make me smile (and succeeded a few times). I was there for them. When I was alone …. Second Life felt empty for me. I missed Jenny terribly.

Diary 2022 (113) August 14th/15th A monument for Jenny Maurer

Sunday, August 14th, I spent again quite some time in Second Life, roaming over sims aimlessly. I had a few IMs, I talked with Del (Krysbia). I met Kitty and later Flo shortly for a game of skipee.
I made another holographic statue of Jenny and placed it at our skybox. And I placed one in the house. Jenny will always be with me in my mind. While I was standing around I searched the marketplace and finally found what I was looking for. A big obelisk with full perm rights. I bought it and looked at home for a central place for it. I placed it near to Jenny’s tree trunk, then I added my 2 favourite pictures of Jenny and me to it making the obelisk a monument for Jenny, a place for my and our grief. I added some candles and a condolence book to leave messages. Finally I added a pond, knowing that Jenny loved the pond in her garden.
I also sent out an announcement to the family and friends group about Jenny’s unexspected death. That Sunday I cried a lot as the finality sinks in more and more. There is only one life.

August 14th: Diomita at Jenny’s monument at home / Diomita kneeling next to Mistress Jenny’s holographic statue in our skybox

At night I played a skipee with slave Alessi and Angelique. slave Holly came in-world while we played. It was a close game (Angelique won it). We went to Carnal Intentions. Argi joined us there later. We just talked amoung us and watched the world go by.

August 14th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Angelique, Argi, slave Holly and slave Alessi

Monday, August 15th, I visited an exhibition that opened Friday, August 19 – “New Day” by Bamboo Barnes (read here https://wp.me/psPPu-8t6). What a coincidence. A new day has always something mystical if you think about it. It is a start, it is embracing what it has on stock for us. Not that I can ever forget the love of my Second Life. The last 14 years were a great journey together with Jenny. But with every new day, I think about what to do now. Some decisions that I have to take are starting to crystallize. They are becoming a little clearer from day to day.

I changed my home point at our sim. Mistress Jenny and I just had moved it to the sun terrace of our house. Now I moved it to Jenny’s monument. So that I can send an hello to her in heaven every time I return home. I miss her terribly.
Angelique came by and added a rose to Jenny’s monument.

August 15th: Diomita and Angelique at Jenny’s monument

At night I met Angelique at Jenny’s memorial monument. She was dressed really tempting and was wearing cuffs. I locked her hands and took her with me to club DeLust. Actually she got some attention being leashed to her aunt. When Flo came inworld we returned home to see her. She had issues to wear her tape dress again. We helped Flo to get back into her latex dress which was quite some work .. When we finally had fixed it we played a game of skipee, then we went to Carnal Intentions and watched. I put Flo in a full tape encasement, and I dared to have Angelique leashed to me again.
Flo left for bed and slave Alessi joined us. We stayed a bit longer at Carnal Intentions, then we moved on to club DeLust where we spent the rest of the night.

August 15th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions and at club DeLust with Flo, Angelique and slave Alessi

SL feels so different for me. I miss Jenny a lot. I miss talking with her about others, about plans, even about the weather. Everything is so different now. I feel the support of my family and friends though. They worry about me – and they need me (I think).

Diary 2022 (112) August 12th/13th Trying hard to keep going

Friday, August 12th, I felt quite “empty” after I had informed the inner cicle of our family about Jenny’s death the night before. When I logged in I had an offline message from Kitty, who lacked words (like me). slave Holly had sent a picture of her kneeling next to the holographic statue of Jenny that I had rezzed on our sun terrace. Alessi was inworld when I came online and I found her sitting by Mistress Jenny’s holographic statue. We definitively will need a pace for our grieve. We hugged each other, then I retreated.
I was not satisfied with the holographic statue of Jenny. Hence i made another and better new one from a picture of Jenny taken on June 12, 2022. Then I returned inworld and knelt next to it and pictured Jenny watching me and us. I met Ebony at home for an hug. I also placed Jenny in our skybox. She will look at me there and I will see her every day when I log in and logout.

August 12th: slave Holly, slave Alessi and Diomita at our sun terrace with Mistress Jenny / Jenny at our skybox

I went visiting the exhibition “Noir Vibrations” by Noir Tater (read here https://wp.me/psPPu-8sy) later. The visit and writing about it, to keep my routines, did distracted me for a while.
I had also decided to have our Friday night party as another fix date in our Second Life routine. Jenny would have demanded that we continue having fun together. I selected something about twins as a theme. Angelique and I would go as “Angelique” twins, slave Holly and slave Alessi were already twins:
“It’s Friday again and in good tradition we start into the weekend with a party. It’s still a hot and dry Summer, hence we’ll have a beach party. To add some fun think about coming as twins or dressed alike or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.”

Angelique and I met in the later afternoon and checked our outfits. we did look quite “alike”.
At night I met Angelique again at the skipee table. Flo came by too, we diced to visit a club and to shock people with our twin outfit. We went to club DeLust. With slave Holly, slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose) and Baroness joining us we had kind of a warming up party at club DeLust.

August 12th: Diomita at home and at club DeLust with Angelique, Flo, Baroness Capelo, slave Holly and slave Lily

We returned home when our first guests turned up. Considering the circumstances we had a lovely party. During the party I informed all, who didn’t know yet about Jenny from me. I shed more tears in RL .. but I begin to realize what a great time Jenny and I had. And I asked Virgo to play “When the lady smiles” from Golden Earing. This was jenny’s and my favourite song from the time she began to take control over me “as a matter of fact I don’t resist at all”. By the end of this song she would lock my cuffs.
The support of my family and friends kept me going. And desipte all sadness it was a good start into the weekend once again.

August 12th – Friday night party: Angelique, Diomita, Flo, slave Holly, slave Alessi, Cherry (Elenaslv Serenity), Dely (Krysbia), Adumadan Biziou, Baroness Capelo (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bast (Bastet Starchild), DaY (daytimesleeper), Jayson Dakota, Tsuki Takeda, Laura (Laura00175), Claven Albatros, Virgo Babii (lower row)

Saturday, August 13th, I was online quiet a lot. I met Dely in the later morning at Lochme. And I met slave Alessi in the early afternoon and took advantage of her at our sun terrace. She licked me to a nice orgasm. Then I took her with me to club DeLust. She had my used panties in her mouth.

At night I met with Angelique. After a game of skipee, Angelique and I went to club DeLust. We talked, we watched the full club with all the silent people, and we had a little play, yet Angelique was not ready for it (yet).

August 13th: Diomita at club DeLust with Angelique

When Alessi came inworld we returned home and had a skipee with three, Angelique, Alessi and I. We went to Carnal Intentions after the game and me with Argi there.
The whole day I felt a strange emptiness. I didn’t know how to go on. I just knew that I would have to take decisions. Not that day, not short term…. but I would have to take them.

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