Diary 2022 (115) August 19th – 21st We try to keep going

01 Sep 2022 Leave a comment

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Friday, August 19th, I had another day seeking an aim for my second life. I was in world several times during the day. Once again I hopped over places. I saw a nice black outfit on a domme at club DeLust. It turned out to be a new relased outfit of XO, a favourite shop of Jenny and me. I got the new outfit, in particular as it fitted perfect for the theme that I had selected for our party at night:
“It’s Friday again and we will continue having our party to start our weekend properly. Jenny loved shiny black clothes. So dress up in shiny black or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes.
You may want to stop by at Jenny’s memorial monument, it is right opposed to the house. Please leave a message – and include her into your prayers.”
I had one play in public with another domme at club DeLust in the earlier afternoon. It was strange for me, yet I admit it was exciting nonetheless (no pictures here). When I returned in the later afternoon I went to club Domme a Domme and watched what was going on there with one eye (and there was entertainment). Again and again I get IMs even from people who I didn’t know, but who knew Jenny. She was respected by many.

When I returned at night to prepare for the party I had a nice surprise. Angelique moved back in at home. It is good to have her back and close to me, in particular these days. After a visit at Jenny’s memorial we went to club DeLust to kill some time and to watch people.

The party was very eomtional for me. Jenny loved our party. It was and still is the start of the weekend. Jenny loved it full – and it was full for her and for me, in who she will live on forever until I will see her on the other side. We had fun, we danced and we shared good memories. I was thankful for the support I experienced. It was good to keep up the traditional party. I enjoyed although I had some severe crying attacks.

August 19th – Friday night party: slave Holly, Diomita, Angelique, slave Alessi, Ebony Massey, Sarah Fhang, Baroness Capelo, Claven Albatros, Betina Sands, Dely (Krysbia), Liz Swann (lizswann), Perla S. Topaz (Perseo Topaz) (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bastet Starchild, Filipa (Filip Huntsman), Kawaii Suki, Jayson Dakota, Adumadan Biziou, Haly Shinn, Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

August 19th – Friday night party – a picture taken by slave Holly

Saturday I started into my day with confidence that I will feel my way out. I made some decisions and I was inworld several times that day. I even had two shorter plays as a sub. Both dommes were quite understanding (and “nice”) but somehow it felt so wrong. I know it is me who is not ready for it. I have to give it more time. My confidence shrank and I knelt at Jenny’s memorial again with crying attacks. Somehow even a virtual place for my grief in RL and SL provides some solace.
I met slave Holly and Angelique in the later afternoon and we talked a bit until I had to leave for dinner. I took slave Holly to the lamp outside ot the house and locked her there. She made a nice picture of herself.

At night I played a skipee with Angelique, Flo and slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose). slave Holly, slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) and slave Alessi came also inworld. We went to club DeLust that night. I literally had my hands full and I felt bad that I had not enough time to talk properly with all. I need to develop a strategy or plan to make enough time with all of them – and to have time for myself as well. My positive energy of the morning was gone. But I have to be thankful for what Jenny and I had together and that I am embedded in a loving family with many friends.

August 20th: slave Holly locked at the lamp at home / Diomita, Angelique, Flo, slave Alessi, slave Holly, slave Lily and slave Sakura at club DeLust

Sunday, I met with Kitty in the morning at Lochme and we hopped over a few empty places. In The Red Room we had fun watching a sub getting transformed into a ATM. Unfortunately we failed getting some money out.
slave Holly and I had planned to meet in the afternoon. I took her to club DeLust and we talked how we could find back the easiness we had before. I still know what which buttons I have to press and I used my knowledge. When I had her where I wanted her I took her to our (now mine) secret place and made her lick me. slave Holly and slave Alessi will get addicted to my sweet poison. I need that now.

August 21st: Diomita and Kitty at Lochme / Diomita and slave Holly at club DeLust and at the secret place (pictures by Holly)

At night I was early and I had a little roleplay at club DeLust. “Someone” grabbed my RLV, restricted me, tranquilized me and threatened me to become her sealed rubber object to be shown around:
“Just imagine yourself totaly encased in rubber just a rubber anonymous thing. All 3 holes plugged and occupied, those pouty lips sucking a large rubber dildo gag so long and wide you’re kept silent unable to moan or make a noise, the other 2 holes plugged with shocking vibes always keeping you on edge and horny but never able to orgasm just melting your mind into being a horny rubber dolly, kept always totally encased with heavy restraints and strict restrictions, always showed off as a shiny rubber doll on a leash for the world to admire. I can coat the plugs for all 3 holes with ghost pepper sauce with all plugs filled with more sauce that they self lubricate with more sauce on timer.”
Jenny would have loved it! She always said that people in SL don’t dare using cuffs, keys and RLV as they did in the earlier years of SL. My “Someone” was not just evil. I explained that I am needed now and so she just teased me verbally – she was “An Individual” as I was restricted after being tranquilized by her. Most probably she will try again to capture me.
I returned home as I expected the family and spent some time at Jenny’s memorial, telling her about my little adventure – and had the first crying attack that day. It slowly becomes bearable. And it is good to speak with Jenny.

Flo, Angelique and slave Holly showed up and we played a skipee as teams. And Ebony came by and spread kisses everywhere.
After the game we went to Psi’s realm, where Alessi joined us, then to Carnal Intentions and finally, after Angelique and Flo had left for bed, I took slave Alessi and slave Holly to club DeLust where Argi joined us for a bit.

August 21st: Diomita at Psi’s realm, Carnal Intentions and at club Delust with Angelique, Flo, Argi, slave Holly and slave Alessi

For me Jenny seems to be everywhere, watching me … and smiling to me with a nod. And nonetheless I miss her so badly.

Diary 2022 (108) August 4th/5th Missing Mistress Jenny (7)

22 Aug 2022 Leave a comment

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Thursday, August 4th, I had quite some time inworld as it was hot outside in RL and hence I had better stay inside. But again I was in and offline. First I spend some time at club Domme a Domme, then at club DeLust. I had a few IMs but nothing important. And of course I get IMs again and again asking me about Mistress Jenny.
In the later morning I visited Puerto Esclava and met a friend of Mistress and me there. She’s a domme and she invited me over to her. We talked a bit and I allowed her to dominate me. Being in charge of our slaves, keeping up the relationships within our family and friends, all the worries about Mistress, made me want to let control go for a moment. And our friend provided that to me. I won’t share pictures, nor details, nor her name. RL and SL are quite interwoven for me these days.

August 4th: Diomita at club DeLust / Diomita visiting Cherishville in Summer 2022

In the afternoon I decided to go on a simploring tour instead of hopping from one sim to the other. I visited Cherishville in Summer 2022 (read about it here). It was an enjoyable visit. I got nice pictures and it distracted me well.

My night begans with a skipee with Flo. slave Sakura watched us. When we had ended our game and were thinking about what to do next, slave Luci (Luci Glendale), then slave Alessi and finally slave Holly dropped in. Hence we played another skipee with 5. And I had time to talk with all while we played.

After the game Flo and Luci left for bed and I took slave Holly, slave Alessi and slave Sakura to club DeLust for the rest of the night. And slowly I began to put slave Sakura in the twin outfit of slave Holly and slave Alessi. The three look nice and I got some praises about the slaves. It was already way after our normal bedtime when I took the slaves home.

August 4th: Diomita at club DeLust with slave Holly, slave Alessi and slave Sakura (find the changes between the two pictures)

Friday, August 5th, I was again on and off during the day. I was not up for a simploring tour. I hopped over the clubs. slave Luci decorated me at club Domme a Domme and I locked her up so that I looked good. I also was at Puerto Esclava for a bit. In the early afternoon I met Kitty at Psi’s realm and spent an hour with her there, chatting and watching what was going on there. In the later afternoon I met Dely (krybia) at Lochme, we cuddled and Dely tried to comfort me. Second Life feels very different, sometimes empty, without Jenny. After Dely had left to tend to her RL, I spent some time alone at club Domme a Domme. I got some offers but I was not a very good company that day.

August 5th: Diomita with Luci at club Domme a Domme, at Puerto Esclava, at Psi’s realm with Kitty, at Lochme with Dely and alone at club Domme a Domme

Before I logged out I changed for the party at night. I had selected an easy theme: “It’s Friday again and it’s vacation time. Wear something casual, something fitting to the hot weather, something for the beach disco, or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.“

My night began as usual – with a game of skipee with Flo. We were done quite in time for the party. The party was fun, though I missed dancing with Jenny and in particular talking with her while we were dancing. But that set apart, another good start into the weekend. And it was nicely full too.

August 5th – Friday night party: Diomita, slave Alessi, Angelique, Flo, Dely (krybia), Liz Swann (lizswann), Ebony Massey, Vishii (Vaishyaa), Baroness Capelo, Rhyn Nootan (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Winngtips, Bast (Bastet Starchild), Kawaii Suki, Jayson Dakota, Claven Albatros, Laura (laura00175), Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

Diary 2022 (101) July 21st/22nd Summer jingle bells

10 Aug 2022 Leave a comment

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When I came inworld on Thursday, July 21st, in the afternoon, I found an offline message from Kitty. She had met Holly and had noticed her withdrawal symptoms when I am not close to her: “Holly gets these shivers.. almost as if she’s suffering from withdrawal symptoms of some kind. You can even see the nipple rings shivering. So if she had bells hanging from them, you could hear her shiver.” I left a message for Kitty that I had attached some bells to slave Holly’s nipple rings and that I expect a report when Kitty can hear her shiver now.

I met with Mistress Jenny and we spent more than an hour together at club Domme a Domme and at club DeLust. Mistress granted me some time to recover, to just inhale her nearness … and to nuture my hunger and desire of her. I had a very enjoyable afternoon talking about us mainly. We also talked about the theme for our Friday night party the next day and Mistress proposed to set the theme according to our weather these days. It had been very hot first and then we got rain and a bit of cooling down.
“It’s Friday again, it’s time to start off into our weekend. After the heat we enjoy some cooling rain showers (at least some of us). So wear your waterproof plastic rain outfits, a brolly or naked skin – or come as your are and join us. DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.”

July 21st: Mistress Jenny and Ehesklavin Diomita at club Domme a Domme and at club DeLust

At night Mistress and I took slave Sakura to Psi’s realm for a while first. When slave Holly came inworld we returned home for a round of skipee. I noticed that slave Holly lay on the floor in her room. It was my absence from her that caused that.
We had a nice balanced and close game. And after the game we went to club DeLust. Just while I was going ahead to the club slave Holly fell on the ground again, poor slave girl!
At club delust we had a relaxed night. slave Sakura and Baroness Capelo danced for us and the other guests. The club looks way better when someone is dancing on the stage!

July 21st: Mistress Jenny and Diomita at Psi’s realm, at home and at club DeLust with slave Sakura, slave Holly and Baroness Capelo

Friday, July 22nd, I was inworld in the afternoon. I should have met with Mistress Jenny but she must have had RL priorities. slave Holly was present though and we spent some time at club DeLust together. Then I returned home to change for the party. I would be late for it as I had a RL invitation that night and hence it made sense to change already.

When I came inworld late night the party was going on already. Mistress didn’t show up at night as well. But we had fun with the rain theme. This is how our weekends start.

July 22nd – Friday night party: slave Holly, diomita, Ebony Massey, Sarah Fhang, Claven Albatros, Baroness Capelo (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Kawaii Suki, Jayson Dakota, Kira Skytower, Virgo Babii (lower row)