Diary 2022 (126) September 16th – 18th Busy times in RL

Friday, September 16th, my Rl kept me from going inworld during the day, but I made it for theFriday night party. I had picked a theme according to the weather “It’s a rainy Friday. Let us welcomd the rain and celebrate the start of our weekend. Wear something waterproof or come as you are, even naked is waterproof *winks*. DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.”

Listening to the music and a chat here and there was a welcomed distraction.

September 16th – Friday night party: Diomita, Angelique, Flo, slave Susan (susanblackrose) , Sarah Fhang, Adumadan Biziou, Dely (krysbia), Claven Albatros, Rhyn Nootan, Laura (laura00175), Baroness Capelo (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Sara (SaraRandall), Tania (opentatiana), Nessa (nessasub), Luci Glendale, Shy (shahniyah), Virgo Babii (lower row)

Saturday, September 17th, was quite uneventful regarding SL. I had a busy day in RL and was not much inworld. I found the time to creat the Enjoying Bondave picture for September at least,
At night it was quiet. Angelique and Alessi were inworld and we played 2 rounds of skipee which took most of our time that Saturday night. After the game we just hang around at club Delust for half an hour, then I went to bed.

September 17th: Diomita and Angeique at club DeLust with slave Alessi

Sunday, September 18th, was just the same for me … I was not inworld during the day due to my RL. But I was inworld at night and we had a full house at home. We played a skipee with 3 teams: Madame Sarah with slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose), Angelique with slave Susan (susanblackrose) and Flo with me. That was rare fun. slave Holly came inworld as well and we could have played with 4 teams .. but Luci Glendale, who had appreared as well, and Sarah Fhang left after the game.

We went to Carnal Intentions that night and I had my hands full. When Ebony joined us we had the family complete, just Kitty was missing! I had an accordingly chatty night, very distracting and the right thing to do for me to get to other thoughts.

September 18th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Angelique, Flo, Ebony Massey, slave Holly, slave Lily, slave Alessi and slave Susan

Diary 2022 (115) August 19th – 21st We try to keep going

Friday, August 19th, I had another day seeking an aim for my second life. I was in world several times during the day. Once again I hopped over places. I saw a nice black outfit on a domme at club DeLust. It turned out to be a new relased outfit of XO, a favourite shop of Jenny and me. I got the new outfit, in particular as it fitted perfect for the theme that I had selected for our party at night:
It’s Friday again and we will continue having our party to start our weekend properly. Jenny loved shiny black clothes. So dress up in shiny black or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes.
You may want to stop by at Jenny’s memorial monument, it is right opposed to the house. Please leave a message – and include her into your prayers.
I had one play in public with another domme at club DeLust in the earlier afternoon. It was strange for me, yet I admit it was exciting nonetheless (no pictures here). When I returned in the later afternoon I went to club Domme a Domme and watched what was going on there with one eye (and there was entertainment). Again and again I get IMs even from people who I didn’t know, but who knew Jenny. She was respected by many.

When I returned at night to prepare for the party I had a nice surprise. Angelique moved back in at home. It is good to have her back and close to me, in particular these days. After a visit at Jenny’s memorial we went to club DeLust to kill some time and to watch people.

The party was very eomtional for me. Jenny loved our party. It was and still is the start of the weekend. Jenny loved it full – and it was full for her and for me, in who she will live on forever until I will see her on the other side. We had fun, we danced and we shared good memories. I was thankful for the support I experienced. It was good to keep up the traditional party. I enjoyed although I had some severe crying attacks.

August 19th – Friday night party: slave Holly, Diomita, Angelique, slave Alessi, Ebony Massey, Sarah Fhang, Baroness Capelo, Claven Albatros, Betina Sands, Dely (Krysbia), Liz Swann (lizswann), Perla S. Topaz (Perseo Topaz) (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bastet Starchild, Filipa (Filip Huntsman), Kawaii Suki, Jayson Dakota, Adumadan Biziou, Haly Shinn, Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

August 19th – Friday night party – a picture taken by slave Holly

Saturday I started into my day with confidence that I will feel my way out. I made some decisions and I was inworld several times that day. I even had two shorter plays as a sub. Both dommes were quite understanding (and “nice”) but somehow it felt so wrong. I know it is me who is not ready for it. I have to give it more time. My confidence shrank and I knelt at Jenny’s memorial again with crying attacks. Somehow even a virtual place for my grief in RL and SL provides some solace.
I met slave Holly and Angelique in the later afternoon and we talked a bit until I had to leave for dinner. I took slave Holly to the lamp outside ot the house and locked her there. She made a nice picture of herself.

At night I played a skipee with Angelique, Flo and slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose). slave Holly, slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) and slave Alessi came also inworld. We went to club DeLust that night. I literally had my hands full and I felt bad that I had not enough time to talk properly with all. I need to develop a strategy or plan to make enough time with all of them – and to have time for myself as well. My positive energy of the morning was gone. But I have to be thankful for what Jenny and I had together and that I am embedded in a loving family with many friends.

August 20th: slave Holly locked at the lamp at home / Diomita, Angelique, Flo, slave Alessi, slave Holly, slave Lily and slave Sakura at club DeLust

Sunday, I met with Kitty in the morning at Lochme and we hopped over a few empty places. In The Red Room we had fun watching a sub getting transformed into a ATM. Unfortunately we failed getting some money out.
slave Holly and I had planned to meet in the afternoon. I took her to club DeLust and we talked how we could find back the easiness we had before. I still know what which buttons I have to press and I used my knowledge. When I had her where I wanted her I took her to our (now mine) secret place and made her lick me. slave Holly and slave Alessi will get addicted to my sweet poison. I need that now.

August 21st: Diomita and Kitty at Lochme / Diomita and slave Holly at club DeLust and at the secret place (pictures by Holly)

At night I was early and I had a little roleplay at club DeLust. “Someone” grabbed my RLV, restricted me, tranquilized me and threatened me to become her sealed rubber object to be shown around:
Just imagine yourself totaly encased in rubber just a rubber anonymous thing. All 3 holes plugged and occupied, those pouty lips sucking a large rubber dildo gag so long and wide you’re kept silent unable to moan or make a noise, the other 2 holes plugged with shocking vibes always keeping you on edge and horny but never able to orgasm just melting your mind into being a horny rubber dolly, kept always totally encased with heavy restraints and strict restrictions, always showed off as a shiny rubber doll on a leash for the world to admire. I can coat the plugs for all 3 holes with ghost pepper sauce with all plugs filled with more sauce that they self lubricate with more sauce on timer.”
Jenny would have loved it! She always said that people in SL don’t dare using cuffs, keys and RLV as they did in the earlier years of SL. My “Someone” was not just evil. I explained that I am needed now and so she just teased me verbally – she was “An Individual” as I was restricted after being tranquilized by her. Most probably she will try again to capture me.
I returned home as I expected the family and spent some time at Jenny’s memorial, telling her about my little adventure – and had the first crying attack that day. It slowly becomes bearable. And it is good to speak with Jenny.

Flo, Angelique and slave Holly showed up and we played a skipee as teams. And Ebony came by and spread kisses everywhere.
After the game we went to Psi’s realm, where Alessi joined us, then to Carnal Intentions and finally, after Angelique and Flo had left for bed, I took slave Alessi and slave Holly to club DeLust where Argi joined us for a bit.

August 21st: Diomita at Psi’s realm, Carnal Intentions and at club Delust with Angelique, Flo, Argi, slave Holly and slave Alessi

For me Jenny seems to be everywhere, watching me … and smiling to me with a nod. And nonetheless I miss her so badly.

Diary 2022 (112) August 12th/13th Trying hard to keep going

Friday, August 12th, I felt quite “empty” after I had informed the inner cicle of our family about Jenny’s death the night before. When I logged in I had an offline message from Kitty, who lacked words (like me). slave Holly had sent a picture of her kneeling next to the holographic statue of Jenny that I had rezzed on our sun terrace. Alessi was inworld when I came online and I found her sitting by Mistress Jenny’s holographic statue. We definitively will need a pace for our grieve. We hugged each other, then I retreated.
I was not satisfied with the holographic statue of Jenny. Hence i made another and better new one from a picture of Jenny taken on June 12, 2022. Then I returned inworld and knelt next to it and pictured Jenny watching me and us. I met Ebony at home for an hug. I also placed Jenny in our skybox. She will look at me there and I will see her every day when I log in and logout.

August 12th: slave Holly, slave Alessi and Diomita at our sun terrace with Mistress Jenny / Jenny at our skybox

I went visiting the exhibition “Noir Vibrations” by Noir Tater (read here https://wp.me/psPPu-8sy) later. The visit and writing about it, to keep my routines, did distracted me for a while.
I had also decided to have our Friday night party as another fix date in our Second Life routine. Jenny would have demanded that we continue having fun together. I selected something about twins as a theme. Angelique and I would go as “Angelique” twins, slave Holly and slave Alessi were already twins:
“It’s Friday again and in good tradition we start into the weekend with a party. It’s still a hot and dry Summer, hence we’ll have a beach party. To add some fun think about coming as twins or dressed alike or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.”

Angelique and I met in the later afternoon and checked our outfits. we did look quite “alike”.
At night I met Angelique again at the skipee table. Flo came by too, we diced to visit a club and to shock people with our twin outfit. We went to club DeLust. With slave Holly, slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose) and Baroness joining us we had kind of a warming up party at club DeLust.

August 12th: Diomita at home and at club DeLust with Angelique, Flo, Baroness Capelo, slave Holly and slave Lily

We returned home when our first guests turned up. Considering the circumstances we had a lovely party. During the party I informed all, who didn’t know yet about Jenny from me. I shed more tears in RL .. but I begin to realize what a great time Jenny and I had. And I asked Virgo to play “When the lady smiles” from Golden Earing. This was jenny’s and my favourite song from the time she began to take control over me “as a matter of fact I don’t resist at all”. By the end of this song she would lock my cuffs.
The support of my family and friends kept me going. And desipte all sadness it was a good start into the weekend once again.

August 12th – Friday night party: Angelique, Diomita, Flo, slave Holly, slave Alessi, Cherry (Elenaslv Serenity), Dely (Krysbia), Adumadan Biziou, Baroness Capelo (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bast (Bastet Starchild), DaY (daytimesleeper), Jayson Dakota, Tsuki Takeda, Laura (Laura00175), Claven Albatros, Virgo Babii (lower row)

Saturday, August 13th, I was online quiet a lot. I met Dely in the later morning at Lochme. And I met slave Alessi in the early afternoon and took advantage of her at our sun terrace. She licked me to a nice orgasm. Then I took her with me to club DeLust. She had my used panties in her mouth.

At night I met with Angelique. After a game of skipee, Angelique and I went to club DeLust. We talked, we watched the full club with all the silent people, and we had a little play, yet Angelique was not ready for it (yet).

August 13th: Diomita at club DeLust with Angelique

When Alessi came inworld we returned home and had a skipee with three, Angelique, Alessi and I. We went to Carnal Intentions after the game and me with Argi there.
The whole day I felt a strange emptiness. I didn’t know how to go on. I just knew that I would have to take decisions. Not that day, not short term…. but I would have to take them.