Diomita Maurer’s Blog

Living in a family with a larger part of Americans I can’t blind out either Halloween nor Thanksgiving. Today I got an IM from slaveboy which made me laugh heartly and which reminded me so perfectly to Christmas in Germany. Christmas in Germany is “the” family event of the year as it is Thanksgiving in the US. And the whole life focusses to “the” day. Everyone is very busy before – and shops are crowded. People buy food enough for weeks as if there’s nothing left over to buy tomorrow.
Back to the IM of slaveboy which made me laugh so wonderfully as I can really feel with it:
“This boy has also renamed Thanksgiving to “Stuffing Day”: First you stuff yourself into a parking lot to get into the store, stuffed with people who all are stuffing their shopping carts, then stuff the fridge, stuff the turkey, stuff themselves with food, stuff the trash, and then rush into overstuffed mall-parking lots for black-Friday sale to buy stuff that they don’t need. Happy Stuffing Day! :-)))) slaveboy”

Thank you for the laugh, slaveboy … and Happy Thanksgiving to all of you

…. are hard to find. At least those that might fit to me, to Jenny, to my other subs and to the whole family for a longterm relation and thus for being collared. I try to figure out why. Certainly the expectations of the subs and of me don’t fit.
I do enjoy a session for one night and if it is consensus to keep it a one night session or to keep meeting and playing rarely, I am very content with it.
So what do I expect from a submissive who would fit to me and to us for a longer relation?
As a matter of fact I don’t want to, and nor can I, play with them every time when we’re online at the same time.
I don’t want to have them around me always – but I expect that I can if I like.
And I do not want to lock them away all the time that I don’t use them –  but I expect that I can if I like.
I don’t want to keep them restricted all of their SL – but I expect that I can if I like.
I also don’t want to prevent them from their own development and explorations of SL – but I expect that I can if I like.
I expect that my subs are devoted to me, to my wife and to my Goddess.
They should have the intention to please me, to be there when I want them around or when I want to play with them.
I like to control. I want to know where they are and what they do. They shall report to me.
They shall write about their adventures, thoughts and feelings.
They shall read the blogs of all blogging family members to keep themselves up to date. They should read profiles of the family members.
They should not spend any Linden without my permission.
They will learn to be happy when I grant freedoms.
They should be happy when I allow them to be at my feet all night long.
They should talk when spoken to.
They should simply be devoted to me and to us.
Their satisfaction is to know that they add a bit to our comfort, to our happiness. Nonetheless they may enjoy themselves when I allow it. And they have to enjoy and explore on their own when I allow it – as I can’t cut myself into pieces.
What I offer in return is care, love, fun, protection and also belonging to the best Family in SL.
Am I selfish? Yes, I am.

Something to smile about now that winter approaches.

In 4 weeks time on the 24^th October Diomita and I became Partners 2 years ago.

That day will always be important to us and as it falls on a Sunday this year it gives us a very good reason to celebrate all weekend.

We will be starting off at BRATZ night club on Friday the 22^nd October . We have yet to decide the theme but we will be providing spot prizes for the competition boards. So please come if you are able and join in the fun.

We hope to see all our family and friends over the weekend and that is why we are giving out as much warning as we can so we can see you if you are on line. We understand that RL must always come first  J and then coming in SL is more fun.

This gives me an opportunity to say something about my special wife:

In these past few months we have found our partnership growing beyond anything we ever deamed it could. We are exploring new things and meeting more people.  Both families are growing with new members and friends and SL  still brings a smile to our faces. We both hope it does the same for you

Jen

For all of you who like a good laugh… here’s a IM dialogue from Jenny of today. She was at a crowded site and got this in her IM….

X          : Greetings little one
Laylady Lay: Hi
X          : you are a slave and just say hi  to a Mistress
Laylady Lay: I am owned by one wonderful lady not all and sundry
X          : and your Mistress name girl
Laylady Lay: try reading Profiles girl
X          : i see her name now
Laylady Lay: maybe you would like to kneel before her
X          : she as not brought you up well girl
X          : i will be im-ing her with your rudeness
Laylady Lay: and you base that judgment on what evidence?
X          : as i said i will be im-ing her with your rudeness
Laylady Lay: so you know nothing and you think you can judge others
X          : i know enough
X          : on how you talk to another Mistress
Laylady Lay: and you are a Mistress because what?
Laylady Lay: you are quite funny really
Laylady Lay: 🙂
Laylady Lay: you are more than welcome to kneel before us both
Laylady Lay: just IM us any time
Laylady Lay: we will send a chariot
X          : ha ha ha
Laylady Lay: thank you for the laugh

You made our day, X !!

Inspired by Goddess’ ranting I want to write also something to get that off of my chest.

In many profiles you read that SL is SL and RL is RL. Many people want to keep their SL separate from their RL. Why? We try things out in SL, we explore ourselfs. We want to be young again, we want to be slim and attractive. We live fantasies that we wouldn’t live in RL. We’re actors. There’re many motivations. I am not different! I try to keep my RL separate from my SL. It could destroy my SL world if i would see or hear my SL friends in RL and if that picture does not fit with the one that I buildt in my mind. Thus it is also a form of protection of my SL to keep it separate from RL as much as possible. As much as possible … I can’t separate everthing. I can’t switch off my thoughts when I log off.  And thus when i had an argument or a bad expierence the thoughts about it follow me through my RL day. As well as many positve thoughts follow me into my RL. You would see me smile when i think about my lovely wife in SL, when i think about my SL family. My SL is part of my RL and not an unimportant part of it as i spent most of my free time online in SL. I don’t deny that SL is a part of my RL….. and consequently RL also is part of my SL.

And as in RL we do love and hate. We have emotions, we feel, we cry, we love, we build families, we build networks, we talk, there’re rumors and badmouthing like in RL. It is like this. And I am very aware of it. In additions in our bdsm community we try out relations that can’t be lived that way in RL and that might imply other difficulties in SL – but in my personal opinion provide even more joy (just by the way).

Why do I write this? Why do I want to spread these thoughts? I observe that some people loose their manners in SL. They don’t consider that people can be hurt badly in SL and take bad feelings it their RL. I want to appeal for tolerance. Simply accept that some people don’t love eachother. Accept that in SL relations can be as complicated as in RL. Please be always aware that we all have emotions. Please be aware that we can’t blind out SL in our RL and vice versa. Please keep SL a place to be happy. Accept the weired behavior of others who try something different in their SL. Also accept banning. In RL you would not give the keys to your house to someone you don’t like or with who you had a serious fight. You would keep your door locked. And in SL you have the wonderful function to mute those you don’t like (unfortunately this isn’t invented yet in RL).

I love my SL. As said above it is an important part of my RL. I love my wife and and my family in SL. I love my Goddess and owner. I am devoted to both. I enjoy.

Just…. let’s keep things in perspective.

Do I feel better now …. yes !!

This time I want to report from a girl that stayed 2 weeks with us. She had a particular kink and I still am not sure why she choosed me for her game. But I am quite sure that I didn’t play her game to bad – and much more important I had fun myself.  She, let’s call her XY, IMd me when I was in a kidnapping RP sim. Funny thing is, I was about to play and was wearing a maid’s uniform and my shackles with all of my keys out. She IMd me, telling me that she has heard about me and that she’d be impressed about me and that she’s looking for fun but nobody would grab her and her keyes. And she told me that she spent one year more or less bound tightly and in forced mouselook. And that she’s unhappily owned. To make a long story short – instead of being caught myself, XY ended nicely tied and gagged in our house leashed by the fireplace.

In the following 2 weeks I learned about her kink and roleplay. She never cheats. She told me that she has seen her owner only rarely during the last year and that the attention that we gave her at one night was more than she got in over one year. But she will stay hers whatever happens unless sold or given to someone else by her. From that moment on she began to behave as a victim. She talked about getting home. She would never stay with me leashed at the fireplace as I don’t own her. I had fun because obviously she would stay exactly there for one year if her owner doesn’t care bout her. She said that she would submit to me to become my bound toy – if her former owner releases her. She talked OOC how she enjoyed the attention she got … and then a few moments later she blamed me for not releasing her in her roleplay.
Well, I didn’t release her. Instead I gagged her tightly with no IM and blindfolded her, when she began to growl at me. I could see her logging in and out again and again, just to get a word from me,  just to play her RP as a kidnapped victim. She began to attract me as she really seemed to love the play and as she promised to turn her loayality to me, if she would be released. And what is bad having a bound toy at home? Ready to play with it when you’re in the mood for it – or leave it when you’re not up for playing. If that is her kink, why not. I can easily handle such a low maintainence toy.

After 2 weeks XY who still had no single contact to her domme finally according to her own words set a deadline date to herself. She would give  herself as a toy to me and owe me her loyality if her domme wouldn’t appear within one additional week. Havening said this, she asked for a week off. Knowing her already a little bit, I refused and offered a day IMing. XY was upset, talked about missing trust and then she didn’t talk anymore, she really rp’d at her best. Knowing that she only seeks strictness I left her at her place. A few days later I got an IM telling me that I have lost her trust by mistrusting her by refusing the week off and that I could never get her loyality. And from her RP .. that loyality was the best she could offer.

I didn’t see the trap. I released her. Two weeks having a bondage toy ended. XY IMd me later telling me how much she enjoyed it. And that her last IM trapping me was a desparate last try as I didn’t release her before. Strange? Weired? Everyone has other kinks. Everyone seeks other satisfactions. Everyone should simply enjoy what SL can give to us. For XY is was her beeing kidnapped rp. Calling her domme with over 100 offline IM (I don’t know if that’s ture) I don’t blame her. I had fun with her … and honestly, if at least some of her stories about friends and about her domme were not a lie (leaving her one year without real attention??)

I think she ruined the chance to find people who care a bit for her. But then …. she will go on searching and maybe that is even more her kink than finding.