Diary 2022 (118) August 28th/29th A new profile picture

08 Sep 2022 Leave a comment

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Sunday, August 30th, I further worked on my appearance. I was not satisfied with the lipstick because of some reason the lipstick did not perfectly fit. In the course of trying to find out the resaon, I destroyed my avatar complete once again. In the end it was just one switch that caused me to try again and again to repair my head. Finall I found this switch (after almos 2 hours!). I aslo found the reason why the lipstick didn’t work .. and I couldn’t use it unfortunately but had to choose another one, that doesn’t shine like the one that didn’t fit perfectly.
After I had restored myself, I took another selfie and I changed my profile picture. I added Jenny to my profile picture toexpress that she will always be with me and that a part of her is in me forever.
After all, this filled my whole morning.

August 28th: Diomita’s profile picture

In the afternoon I had some time in-world and I spent it a club DeLust first. Mercy (Steelyeye Blinker) was there and we talked. Mistress Jenny had ordered me to submit to her a few month ago but the time difference between Mercy and me didn’t work out too well and Mistress Jenny stopped it. That afternoon I could sense that Mercy’s sub side was way stronger than her domme side and I allowed her to kneel at my feet. we continues talking and I began to lock her up and to take control. Then I took her home with me. I showed her our homesim, then I sat down at the decking to talk with Mercy while she worshipped my feet. I agreed to take her into trial knowing that the time difference of 6 hours is the worst it could be. But she was so eager – and it might work out. And she makes a nice addition.

August 28th: Diomita and slave Mercy

At night Flo was present and Sarah Fhang came by. We played a skipee togeter so that Sarah could learn it by playing. Angelique joined us at the table, later also slave Holly.
After the game we went to Psi’s realm, where slave Alessi, slave Sakura (SakuraMatsumoto) and a random other slave (who became my chair) joined us. Time went by quickly …. and after Sarah, Flo and Angelique had left I was alone and had my hands full with four. It was a relaxed night. I thought a lot of Jenny and pictured her watching us with a smile.
We returned home and slave Holly was allowed to lick me to a nice orgasm.

August 28th: Diomita at Psi’s realm with Sarah Fhang, Flo, Angelique, slave Holly, slave Alessi, slave Sakura and a random slave as my chair

Monday, August 29th, I met Kitty in the morning while I was kneeling at Jenny’s memorial. I was shortly absent and when I returned she was kneeling silently next to me. She told me and Jenny about her weekend in RL and that she enjoyed some time off.
I went visiting Ambre Singh’s newest exhibtion “Post Masters” and wrote a blogpost about it (read here) in the later morning.
At night I first met Angelique and we played a skipee. When slave Holly came inworld we went to club DeLust together. And after angelique had left, slave Holly got her fix. Then I spent the rest of the night with slave Holly and slave Alessi.

August 29th: Diomita and Kitty at Jenny’s memorial / Diomita, Angelique and slave Holly at club Domme a Domme / Diomita and slave Holly / Diomita at Carnal Intentions with slave Alessi and slave Holly

Diary 2022 (117) August 25th – 27th slowly returning to everyday life

07 Sep 2022 Leave a comment

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Thursday, August 25th, I was inworld in the morning shortly and had a chat with our Kitty. She has fun at Fortress Mortice, one of the older places in SL in the meanwhile. In the afternoon, I met with slave Holly, who is sick at the moment and couldn’t stay long. But she decorated me well for half an hour at club DeLust.
At night I visited a place named “Shrine of Rememberance”. LL created it and you can plant flowers for loved ones you lost in SL. The place is full of flowers and I planted one for Jenny. I returned home and met with Sarah Fhang. I had given her a master key to my cuffs … and she took advantage of it. We had a little play and I look forward to more. Its been almost a decade that we played – and she didn’t forget anything, and intends to take me strictly. Another outlet for my sub side.
Flo and slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) were online. Flo played skipee alone and I joined her when Madame Sarah released me from my misery. Flo and I played a round, slave Sakura watched us. And when we had finished playing, slave Alessi came by. I went to club DeLust with Flo, slave Alessi and slave Sakura.

August 25th: Diomita at club DeLust with slave Holly / at the Shrine of Rememberance / Sarah Fhang with Diomita / Diomita at club DeLust with Flo, slave Alessi and slave Sakura

Friday, August 26th, I visited the new exhibition of Milena Carbone, Metamorphoses (read here). It was and still is a very intriguing exhibition that shows how artificial intelligence (AI) could change the arts in RL and SL. Writing about it distracted me well. Other than that I had a few chats and I had a shorter session with a domme. I am trying to find the right balance for myself and check who could provide it for me (and has fun so that it is win/win) while staying domme and heading the family.
At night we had our Firday night party. I had fixed the theme to : “It’s Friday again, time to celebrate the weekend. We will have another beach party tonight, hence wear something for the beach, preferably in purple or violet or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.”
What some may know and others don’t, purple, plum and violet tones were some of Jenny’s favourite colours, and hence it was also another theme for my beloved wife.

August 26th – Friday night party: Flo, Angelique, slave Holly, slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto), Diomita, Sarah Fhang, Cherry (Elenaslv Serenity), Domina Ansar, Baroness Capelo (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bastet Starchild, Filipa (Filip Huntsman), Jayson Dakota, Jammy Serendipity (Jammy Voxel), Laura (laura00175), Claven Albatros, Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

Saturday August 27th, I was inworld in the later afternoon. I went to a hypnosis place and I was curious and tried out a drink at the bar there. That turned out to be not a good idea. I got at new shape and my whole avatar got destroyed. Sh…..
I went to our loft skybox and slowly began to rebuild my avatar. Too bad that I hadn’t made a security copy lately. It was quite some work to get to myself again (and I had to cheat out RLV in addition). In the course of getting back to myself, I bought new hair and I got new makeup and in the end I was very satisfied with the result!

August 27th: Diomita’s new appearance

At night I met with Angelique and we went to club DeLust. Sarah Fhang joined us there and later slave Holly. When slave Alessi came inworld and Sarah had to leave we returned home for a skipee. Angelique and I won it against slave Holly and slave Alessi, but it was a close game (and hence fun). After the game we spent some time at Carnal Intentions.

August 27th: Diomita, Angelique, Sarah Fhang and slave Holly at club DeLust / Diomita, Angelique, slave Holly and slave Alessi at Carnal Intentions

Diary 2022 (116) August 22nd – 24th Quiet days

05 Sep 2022 Leave a comment

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Monday, August 22nd, I spent some time inworld in the later morning visiting a gallery, La Maison d’Aneli (read here). I the afternoon I sat down at club DeLust and watched the time go by while writing the report about my visit.
At night Angelique was present. We went to club DeLust together and when slave Holly came inworld I summoned her to us. slave Holly had met up with Kitty in the morning. It still makes me happy that the two get along well. I spent the night at club Delust with Angelique and slave Holly and later when Angelique had left with slave Holly. We just talked while slave Holly was forced to stare at my crotch to remember her addiction that I am going to nuture. Before it was time for bed, I took slave Holly home with me as I had to pee.

August 22nd: slave Holly and Kitty at home / slave Holly’s view on me / Diomita at club DeLust with Angelique and slave Holly

Tuesday, August 23rd, I was inworld a few times during the day. I bought new sinful high heels, something I couldn’t walk in in RL and seeing me walk in them in SL makes me shiver. Lucikly I can’t fall here and even if, it would not hurt. I wanted them as many avatars are really tall in this virtual world, so now I can reach at least the chin of some tall avatars. I spent some time at club DeLust. And that’s it. I tended to my RL most of the time.
At night Flo, Angelique and slave Lily were at home and we played a skipee as teams – Flo and slave Lily won it. slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) watched us playing. We went to Carnal Intentions after the game and I had my hands full again literally. slave Holly also came inworld and I summoned her to us. She wasn’t feeling well that night and after Angelique and Flo had left for bed we returned home and brought her to her room.
And afterwards I went to Lochme with slave Alessi and slave Sakura for a bit.

August 23rd: Diomita at club DeLust / Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Angelique, Flo, slave Holly, slave Alessi, slave Lily and slave Sakura

Wednesday, August 24th, I was inworld a lot, yet often I was just standing a club DeLust and doing other things in RL. In the afternoon I had a play with a domme. No nothing really happened yet it was exciting and distracted me. I got new hair in the course of that afternoon. I clearly need to feel out of my current situation and find my own way.
At night I found a message from slave Holly, that she feels sick and might not come inworld. She had been feeling not that good the night before already. And Flo annonuced she would run late as well. Angelique was inworld and we met at club DeLust, we chatted and watched the world go by. Angelique liked my new hair style, though it makes me look older and more mature. I knew that but I like the effect, as I am not 20 anymore, not even 40 anymore. After Angelique left, I went to Avec Toi and spoiled myself with another outfit, an oufit that I saw at club DeLust.
slave Alessi joined me later that night and decorated me well at club Domme a Domme and at club DeLust, where Argi joined us.

August 24th: Diomita at club DeLust / at club Domme a Domme / at club DeLust with Angelique / new hair style / at club Domme a Domme with slave Alessi

Those days just went by.

A tribute to Jenny Maurer

03 Sep 2022 3 Comments

by diomitamaurer in about family members, Real Life and Second Life Tags: , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

Those who follow us in this blog might have an idea how difficult it was for me to write this text. If I missed anyone close to Jenny in this post, please forgive me – it was not intended!

My beloved partner, my property, my Mistress, my world and my best friend passed away unexpectedly in in July 2022.

There is no second life, we all have only one life. Second Life was Jenny’s and my heavenly escape. A place where we could try out ourselves, do things we’d never dared doing in RL, we could dress kinky and own a big island. We could be evil and nice. But still this second life was part of our one life.

Diomita and Jenny Maurer (2009/2010)

Jenny rezzed her avatar (Laylady Lay) in Second Life on March 19th, 2008, just 6 weeks after I had rezzed mine. We met each other the first time on May 21st, 2008 at a place called Stonehaven, which was at that time a very popular sim for bondage lovers, cage lovers and for other kinky people. I had a small house up in the skies of Stonehaven. I just had been collared by Yasmin Heartsdale and was a member of her “brat pack”.
Jenny and I, we both sat at the patio of Stonehaven. Frankly, this was a really ugly place, but it was popular. There was a wall with hooks where subs and slaves were leashed and put on display and a few chairs for the visitors who watched what was going on. We began to talk and that night I showed Jenny my house in the skies and the cage I had there. She wanted to go in spontaneously but I stopped her from doing so. Instead I promised her that I would allow it the next time we would meet. Jenny returned the next day and entered the cage. I kept her in there until June 5th, 2008. That day I collared her as my slave with the blessing of my owner those days, Yasmin. We had used her time in the cage to talk for endless hours, to get known to each other. We talked about our expectations, about our kinks, about D/s, about bondage and yes also about our RL. It was the beginning of a wonderful time we had together, more than 14 unforgetable years, in which we saw each other daily for several hours. When our RL prevented us to come into second life, we stayed in touch with other media.

Diomita and Jenny Maurer (2008/2009)

We got partnered in Second Life and married with a real virtual wedding ceremony (held by Yasmin) on October 24th, 2008. For our honeymoon we got a skybox which is still in the skies of our homesim today and which we named “Chez Maurer”.

We founded an own family within Yasmin’s brat pack. That’s why we called our family “Euro Brats”. I forced Jenny to be dominant towards the other slaves who I collared over the years. One of our first slaves was Santana Thibedeau, who we collared on November 22nd, 2008. He once had a play with other slaves of Yasmin’s brat pack and became a cat, a Kitty for a limited time. And she began to enjoy it that much, that we decided that he stays female. (S)he became Kitty Maurer.
Jenny enjoyed her dominance towards our subs and slaves more and more with time and she wanted more. She negotiated that I submitted to her for limited times, which we called a “green light”. After my release from Yasmin’s collar in 2011, Jenny convinced me to wear a collar again – her collar. And I agreed that we owned each other mutually. Later we fixed a day for my collaring: April 21st, 2013.
Our family changed … slaves and subs came and left. In 2012 we collared Angelique. Angelique Maurer became a close family member. She became our niece and as our niece she literally grew, she persued her own way and her own way of roleplay. And more and more we became her aunts, providing a stable family and base for her just like in RL. Angelique was never officially released by us, and we loved to have her around – as our niece. In these hard days of grieving for Jenny, I am very happy to her her around.
And there is our Flo. We enslaved Flo on Nov 29th, 2013 – she had no chance once we got our claws into her. On the occasion of her 7th collaring anniversary in 2020, we promoted our long standing friend and slave to “Maurer’s Housekeeper”, a position with more duties and not more rights. Thank you, Flo.
With the years going by, Jenny’s dominant side developed and became stronger and stronger. On the eve of our eighth wedding anniversary, October 23rd, 2016, I finally fully submitted to Mistress Jenny and became her married slave, her Ehesklavin for the rest of our time together. I still owned her as well but since that day Mistress Jenny was in charge. She was the one who granted green lights, the limited times when I was allowed to dominate her, and when she could let her hair down and relax being mine for a couple of days. As a true dominant, she made her life comfortable and kept me as the head of our family – she was smart.

Jenny and Diomita Maurer’s 10th wedding anniversary October 24th, 2018 (witnessed by our niece Angelique)

We had our own homeplace, a homestead named Mount Everest, since June 2011. We occupied 1/2 of our homesim and had rented out 1/4 to Sarah Fhang, a friend of ours who we knew from our Stonehaven times. And another 1/4 was rented out to Virgo Babii and Tyra Sciarri, also longterm friends from that time. Virgo is the dj of the legendary Friday night party, that is celebrated every Friday since 2008 and took place (and still takes place) on our sim since we owned it. Jenny loved the Friday night parties with which we started into our weekends. She hated to miss them due to RL shift work. We used to talk about a theme for the party every Thursday and she came up with great ideas.

We were inseparable, a domme couple, yet everyone around us knew that I was Mistress Jenny’s married slave. We were embedded in a great community of family and friends: Claven Albatros, Baroness Capelo, our stepdaughter Ebony, Argi Boa, Starbright Wingtips and the whole pixie gang and many others. In 2021 we collared slave Holly and Jenny was pleased owning her. Just lately we also enjoyed the presence of slave Alessi (who is not collared by us) and we became closer with our domme friend Dely (krybia).

Jenny was a wonderful person. She was always polite and tolerant. I learned a lot from her. She took things not too seriously. She wanted that all around her had fun. She insisted that we never forced a slave or sub to stay, that we never collared someone against their will. She had wit and creativity. She taught me being more “British”. Since she had retired in RL in 2021, Mistress and I had more time in the afternoons, more time for togetherness. Mistress Jenny strengthened her position as my owner. She pushed me deep into subspace and I enjoyed it. She did prepare her steps. Nothing happened by accident. Yet she also kept her spontaneity and she took care of me so that I never doubted her love. She loved teasing me and keeping me on my toes.

Dominance is the ability to create a hunger in someone that’s so strong they will do anything, anytime, anywhere just to please you. Jenny created this hunger in me. I really loved, admired and worshipped her. I craved to please her and she always confirmed that I pleased her always and anytime and anywhere. She was very proud to own me and I was proud to be hers. But most of all we were close friends. Jenny was – and will always be (!) – the love of my Second Life. We enjoyed our time in SL, that was a part of our RL. We had just great years, memories that I will value for the rest of my life until I see Jenny again on the other side.

We respected our privacy. Although we talked a lot also about our RL, about our children as well as about projects, about food, about vacations, about work and about everyday life we never exchanged pictures of us, phone numbers or adresses. Thus we kept the picture of each other that we had in Second Life. We lived our Second Life. When Jenny didn’t show up anymore, I had gloomy premonitions that something bad had happened. I am thankful that I got certainty when someone close to Jenny in RL contacted me to tell me that she passed away.

Jenny will be missed not only by me but also by her family and friends in real life as well as in second life. I myself miss her badly, every day. I talk to her, every day. I think of her, every day. I feel her close, every day. I feel her unconditional love every day. Jenny will stay unforgotten not only by me. Rest in peace, my love.

I have to make some decisions now that I am a widow in Second Life. An important chapter in my real life and in my second life has ended. I am more than thankful for my time with Jenny. My second life will go on. I won’t let down our family and friends in this virtual world. Jenny will always be with me, she will watch me from the other side. And as we were inseparable a part of her will live on in my real life and in my virtual existence until I see her again.

Farewell my love, rest in peace, Jenny

Diary 2022 (115) August 19th – 21st We try to keep going

01 Sep 2022 Leave a comment

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Friday, August 19th, I had another day seeking an aim for my second life. I was in world several times during the day. Once again I hopped over places. I saw a nice black outfit on a domme at club DeLust. It turned out to be a new relased outfit of XO, a favourite shop of Jenny and me. I got the new outfit, in particular as it fitted perfect for the theme that I had selected for our party at night:
“It’s Friday again and we will continue having our party to start our weekend properly. Jenny loved shiny black clothes. So dress up in shiny black or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes.
You may want to stop by at Jenny’s memorial monument, it is right opposed to the house. Please leave a message – and include her into your prayers.”
I had one play in public with another domme at club DeLust in the earlier afternoon. It was strange for me, yet I admit it was exciting nonetheless (no pictures here). When I returned in the later afternoon I went to club Domme a Domme and watched what was going on there with one eye (and there was entertainment). Again and again I get IMs even from people who I didn’t know, but who knew Jenny. She was respected by many.

When I returned at night to prepare for the party I had a nice surprise. Angelique moved back in at home. It is good to have her back and close to me, in particular these days. After a visit at Jenny’s memorial we went to club DeLust to kill some time and to watch people.

The party was very eomtional for me. Jenny loved our party. It was and still is the start of the weekend. Jenny loved it full – and it was full for her and for me, in who she will live on forever until I will see her on the other side. We had fun, we danced and we shared good memories. I was thankful for the support I experienced. It was good to keep up the traditional party. I enjoyed although I had some severe crying attacks.

August 19th – Friday night party: slave Holly, Diomita, Angelique, slave Alessi, Ebony Massey, Sarah Fhang, Baroness Capelo, Claven Albatros, Betina Sands, Dely (Krysbia), Liz Swann (lizswann), Perla S. Topaz (Perseo Topaz) (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bastet Starchild, Filipa (Filip Huntsman), Kawaii Suki, Jayson Dakota, Adumadan Biziou, Haly Shinn, Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

August 19th – Friday night party – a picture taken by slave Holly

Saturday I started into my day with confidence that I will feel my way out. I made some decisions and I was inworld several times that day. I even had two shorter plays as a sub. Both dommes were quite understanding (and “nice”) but somehow it felt so wrong. I know it is me who is not ready for it. I have to give it more time. My confidence shrank and I knelt at Jenny’s memorial again with crying attacks. Somehow even a virtual place for my grief in RL and SL provides some solace.
I met slave Holly and Angelique in the later afternoon and we talked a bit until I had to leave for dinner. I took slave Holly to the lamp outside ot the house and locked her there. She made a nice picture of herself.

At night I played a skipee with Angelique, Flo and slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose). slave Holly, slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) and slave Alessi came also inworld. We went to club DeLust that night. I literally had my hands full and I felt bad that I had not enough time to talk properly with all. I need to develop a strategy or plan to make enough time with all of them – and to have time for myself as well. My positive energy of the morning was gone. But I have to be thankful for what Jenny and I had together and that I am embedded in a loving family with many friends.

August 20th: slave Holly locked at the lamp at home / Diomita, Angelique, Flo, slave Alessi, slave Holly, slave Lily and slave Sakura at club DeLust

Sunday, I met with Kitty in the morning at Lochme and we hopped over a few empty places. In The Red Room we had fun watching a sub getting transformed into a ATM. Unfortunately we failed getting some money out.
slave Holly and I had planned to meet in the afternoon. I took her to club DeLust and we talked how we could find back the easiness we had before. I still know what which buttons I have to press and I used my knowledge. When I had her where I wanted her I took her to our (now mine) secret place and made her lick me. slave Holly and slave Alessi will get addicted to my sweet poison. I need that now.

August 21st: Diomita and Kitty at Lochme / Diomita and slave Holly at club DeLust and at the secret place (pictures by Holly)

At night I was early and I had a little roleplay at club DeLust. “Someone” grabbed my RLV, restricted me, tranquilized me and threatened me to become her sealed rubber object to be shown around:
“Just imagine yourself totaly encased in rubber just a rubber anonymous thing. All 3 holes plugged and occupied, those pouty lips sucking a large rubber dildo gag so long and wide you’re kept silent unable to moan or make a noise, the other 2 holes plugged with shocking vibes always keeping you on edge and horny but never able to orgasm just melting your mind into being a horny rubber dolly, kept always totally encased with heavy restraints and strict restrictions, always showed off as a shiny rubber doll on a leash for the world to admire. I can coat the plugs for all 3 holes with ghost pepper sauce with all plugs filled with more sauce that they self lubricate with more sauce on timer.”
Jenny would have loved it! She always said that people in SL don’t dare using cuffs, keys and RLV as they did in the earlier years of SL. My “Someone” was not just evil. I explained that I am needed now and so she just teased me verbally – she was “An Individual” as I was restricted after being tranquilized by her. Most probably she will try again to capture me.
I returned home as I expected the family and spent some time at Jenny’s memorial, telling her about my little adventure – and had the first crying attack that day. It slowly becomes bearable. And it is good to speak with Jenny.

Flo, Angelique and slave Holly showed up and we played a skipee as teams. And Ebony came by and spread kisses everywhere.
After the game we went to Psi’s realm, where Alessi joined us, then to Carnal Intentions and finally, after Angelique and Flo had left for bed, I took slave Alessi and slave Holly to club DeLust where Argi joined us for a bit.

August 21st: Diomita at Psi’s realm, Carnal Intentions and at club Delust with Angelique, Flo, Argi, slave Holly and slave Alessi

For me Jenny seems to be everywhere, watching me … and smiling to me with a nod. And nonetheless I miss her so badly.

Enjoying Bondage August 2022 – Twins and triplets at Psi‘s realm

28 Aug 2022 Leave a comment

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For the Enjoying Bondage series I created another collage for August 2022. The theme for the slaves was mixed. slave Holly and slave Alessi were twins, well amost twins *winks*. In the course of the first days of August I began to change slave Sakura as well in this outift. She still misses the nipple rings and bells as well as the golden chastity belt to be a real triplet, but it’s close enough. Flo got a tape dress with many different bondage opportunities, supposed I have enough tape rolls on stock.
The base picture of the Enjoying Bondage collage was taken on August 2nd at Psi’s realm and shows me with Flo enclosed in black duct tape, slave Alessi, slave Sakura and slave Alessi. I added the triplet – slave Alessi, slave Sakura and slave Holly at the right (from August 7th at Psi’s realm) and Angelique and pet Flo (in silver duct tape this time) from a visit at Carnal Intention on August 6th.
So here it is, sadly without our Mistress Jenny…

Enjoying Bondage August 2022 – Twins and triplets at Psi‘s realm (from left to right): Angelique, pet Pet, Flo, slave Holly, Diomita, slave Sakura, slave Alessi and the triplet Alessi, Sakura and Holly

Diary 2022 (113) August 14th/15th A monument for Jenny Maurer

27 Aug 2022 Leave a comment

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Sunday, August 14th, I spent again quite some time in Second Life, roaming over sims aimlessly. I had a few IMs, I talked with Del (Krysbia). I met Kitty and later Flo shortly for a game of skipee.
I made another holographic statue of Jenny and placed it at our skybox. And I placed one in the house. Jenny will always be with me in my mind. While I was standing around I searched the marketplace and finally found what I was looking for. A big obelisk with full perm rights. I bought it and looked at home for a central place for it. I placed it near to Jenny’s tree trunk, then I added my 2 favourite pictures of Jenny and me to it making the obelisk a monument for Jenny, a place for my and our grief. I added some candles and a condolence book to leave messages. Finally I added a pond, knowing that Jenny loved the pond in her garden.
I also sent out an announcement to the family and friends group about Jenny’s unexspected death. That Sunday I cried a lot as the finality sinks in more and more. There is only one life.

August 14th: Diomita at Jenny’s monument at home / Diomita kneeling next to Mistress Jenny’s holographic statue in our skybox

At night I played a skipee with slave Alessi and Angelique. slave Holly came in-world while we played. It was a close game (Angelique won it). We went to Carnal Intentions. Argi joined us there later. We just talked amoung us and watched the world go by.

August 14th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Angelique, Argi, slave Holly and slave Alessi

Monday, August 15th, I visited an exhibition that opened Friday, August 19 – “New Day” by Bamboo Barnes (read here https://wp.me/psPPu-8t6). What a coincidence. A new day has always something mystical if you think about it. It is a start, it is embracing what it has on stock for us. Not that I can ever forget the love of my Second Life. The last 14 years were a great journey together with Jenny. But with every new day, I think about what to do now. Some decisions that I have to take are starting to crystallize. They are becoming a little clearer from day to day.

I changed my home point at our sim. Mistress Jenny and I just had moved it to the sun terrace of our house. Now I moved it to Jenny’s monument. So that I can send an hello to her in heaven every time I return home. I miss her terribly.
Angelique came by and added a rose to Jenny’s monument.

August 15th: Diomita and Angelique at Jenny’s monument

At night I met Angelique at Jenny’s memorial monument. She was dressed really tempting and was wearing cuffs. I locked her hands and took her with me to club DeLust. Actually she got some attention being leashed to her aunt. When Flo came inworld we returned home to see her. She had issues to wear her tape dress again. We helped Flo to get back into her latex dress which was quite some work .. When we finally had fixed it we played a game of skipee, then we went to Carnal Intentions and watched. I put Flo in a full tape encasement, and I dared to have Angelique leashed to me again.
Flo left for bed and slave Alessi joined us. We stayed a bit longer at Carnal Intentions, then we moved on to club DeLust where we spent the rest of the night.

August 15th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions and at club DeLust with Flo, Angelique and slave Alessi

SL feels so different for me. I miss Jenny a lot. I miss talking with her about others, about plans, even about the weather. Everything is so different now. I feel the support of my family and friends though. They worry about me – and they need me (I think).

Diary 2022 (112) August 12th/13th Trying hard to keep going

26 Aug 2022 Leave a comment

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Friday, August 12th, I felt quite “empty” after I had informed the inner cicle of our family about Jenny’s death the night before. When I logged in I had an offline message from Kitty, who lacked words (like me). slave Holly had sent a picture of her kneeling next to the holographic statue of Jenny that I had rezzed on our sun terrace. Alessi was inworld when I came online and I found her sitting by Mistress Jenny’s holographic statue. We definitively will need a pace for our grieve. We hugged each other, then I retreated.
I was not satisfied with the holographic statue of Jenny. Hence i made another and better new one from a picture of Jenny taken on June 12, 2022. Then I returned inworld and knelt next to it and pictured Jenny watching me and us. I met Ebony at home for an hug. I also placed Jenny in our skybox. She will look at me there and I will see her every day when I log in and logout.

August 12th: slave Holly, slave Alessi and Diomita at our sun terrace with Mistress Jenny / Jenny at our skybox

I went visiting the exhibition “Noir Vibrations” by Noir Tater (read here https://wp.me/psPPu-8sy) later. The visit and writing about it, to keep my routines, did distracted me for a while.
I had also decided to have our Friday night party as another fix date in our Second Life routine. Jenny would have demanded that we continue having fun together. I selected something about twins as a theme. Angelique and I would go as “Angelique” twins, slave Holly and slave Alessi were already twins:
“It’s Friday again and in good tradition we start into the weekend with a party. It’s still a hot and dry Summer, hence we’ll have a beach party. To add some fun think about coming as twins or dressed alike or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.”

Angelique and I met in the later afternoon and checked our outfits. we did look quite “alike”.
At night I met Angelique again at the skipee table. Flo came by too, we diced to visit a club and to shock people with our twin outfit. We went to club DeLust. With slave Holly, slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose) and Baroness joining us we had kind of a warming up party at club DeLust.

August 12th: Diomita at home and at club DeLust with Angelique, Flo, Baroness Capelo, slave Holly and slave Lily

We returned home when our first guests turned up. Considering the circumstances we had a lovely party. During the party I informed all, who didn’t know yet about Jenny from me. I shed more tears in RL .. but I begin to realize what a great time Jenny and I had. And I asked Virgo to play “When the lady smiles” from Golden Earing. This was jenny’s and my favourite song from the time she began to take control over me “as a matter of fact I don’t resist at all”. By the end of this song she would lock my cuffs.
The support of my family and friends kept me going. And desipte all sadness it was a good start into the weekend once again.

August 12th – Friday night party: Angelique, Diomita, Flo, slave Holly, slave Alessi, Cherry (Elenaslv Serenity), Dely (Krysbia), Adumadan Biziou, Baroness Capelo (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bast (Bastet Starchild), DaY (daytimesleeper), Jayson Dakota, Tsuki Takeda, Laura (Laura00175), Claven Albatros, Virgo Babii (lower row)

Saturday, August 13th, I was online quiet a lot. I met Dely in the later morning at Lochme. And I met slave Alessi in the early afternoon and took advantage of her at our sun terrace. She licked me to a nice orgasm. Then I took her with me to club DeLust. She had my used panties in her mouth.

At night I met with Angelique. After a game of skipee, Angelique and I went to club DeLust. We talked, we watched the full club with all the silent people, and we had a little play, yet Angelique was not ready for it (yet).

August 13th: Diomita at club DeLust with Angelique

When Alessi came inworld we returned home and had a skipee with three, Angelique, Alessi and I. We went to Carnal Intentions after the game and me with Argi there.
The whole day I felt a strange emptiness. I didn’t know how to go on. I just knew that I would have to take decisions. Not that day, not short term…. but I would have to take them.

Diary 2022 (111) August 10th/11th Sad Days

25 Aug 2022 2 Comments

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Wednesday, August 10th, I was inworld in the earlier morning and met Kitty. She was at a sailing yacht harbour where you can try out yachts and invited me on a sailing trip. Kitty steered the boat and had me trimming the sails following her commands. It was a nice trip, but it ended after 10 minutes when the boat derezzed itself and we both landed on the ground of the black sea. Nonetheless it was a nice start into the day. We both didn’t mention Jenny, but of course we both thought of her. Jenny and Kitty had always had a close relation to each other.

August 10th: Diomita and Kitty sailing

In the afternoon, I had a few chats, then met the dominant from the day before again. She insisted on a strict protocol and we got a bit moer known to eachother. She was trying to help me as I need an outlet for my sub side. That afternoon we just talked.
I returned home when Angelique came inworld but I missed her unfortunately. What I had in mind for her had to be postponed.

At night I was running late due to my RL. Angelique, Flo and slave Luci were playing skipee. I watched them playing. When they had finished, slave Luci went off to bed. slave Alessi had joined us. As I was a bit tipsy RL I appreciated to play another round as teams to wind down. Angelique and I won it way too easily against Flo and slave Alessi. While we were playing slave Holly had also come in-world.
We all went to club DeLust that night. Angelique wore a lovely dress that revealed her kink perfectly and I ordered her to keep wearing it until further notice. There was not much going on, hence we talked amoung us most of the time. After Flo and Angelique had left for bed, I took slave Holly and slave Alessi to Carnal Intentions .. but it was quiet there as well and it was our bedtime as well, hence we didn’t stay long. I still missed Jenny terrible although everybody tries to distract me and to keep going, just like I did it myself.

August 10th: Diomita at club DeLust and at Carnal Intentions with Angelique, Flo, slave Holly and and slave Alessi

Thursday, August 11th, someone of Jenny’s family in RL contacted me and told me that Jenny passed away unexpectedly in July. I have had a gloomy premonition already but still had hoped.
And now I had to tell our family and friends. How do I do that? Will I stay in Second Life? And if … how will I go on without Jenny?

July 21st: Mistress Jenny and Diomita at club DeLust

I know that Jenny is watching me and us. And whatever I am going to do she will be unforgotten and I am thankful for the great time we had together. Rest in peace my love, my world. I will always love you, Jenny!

I felt so strange and empty. I met slave Alessi at home, who was the first to get my sad news. I hopped around sims. I sat down. I tried to make plans – I couldn’t. I have had plans for Angelique, who stayed in her revealing outfit the whole day as I had ordered her to do. She sent 2 pictures from her doing her work at the Maid Manor in SL wearing the outfit.
I sat down on our sun terrace and began to make a hologram of Jenny – a picture of her with transparent background. I will make a better one some time soon. slave Sakura came by and knelt at my side. I waited to have Angelique and Flo with me. Flo came inworld and began to play skipee as she does it every day. I could have called her to me, but I waited. I had no plan.

August 11th: Diomita and slave Alessi at home / Angelique at work / Mistress Jenny and Diomita at home

When Angelique returned home I had her and Flo at the sun terrace and I told them about Jenny. They lacked words, just like myself. slave Luci (Luci Glendale) joined us and we had a skipee, Flo, Angelique, Luci and I. While we played slave Holly, slave Alessi and Ebony joined us.
I had a busy and empty night. I began to inform the closer family and friends. I did that personally and I decided that we would have the party the next day, as I thought it was in Jenny’s sense that we go on having fun and distraction of our RL. I would send out a group message over the weekend.

After the game Angelique, Flo, slave Alessi, slave Holly and I went to Psi’s realm. It was full there and we had something to watch. Later, when Angelique and Flo had left for bed, I took Alessi and Holly to club DeLust.

August 11th: Diomita at Psi’s realm with Angelique, Flo, slave Holly and slave Alessi

We returned home to meet Argi, who I had talked to as well and who wanted to give me a hug. Then we went off to bed.

Diary 2022 (110) August 8th/9th Missing Mistress Jenny (9)

24 Aug 2022 Leave a comment

by diomitamaurer in Diary Tags: , , , , , , , , , , ,

Monday, August 8th, I was inworld during the day several times, hopping over places, without any plan or intention. Sometimes I stayed a bit and went away from the keybord. Nothing really happened. Without Jenny there’s a strange void for me. I still keep going as if nothing happened. I do it for our subs and slaves. They miss Jenny as well and a lot but they avoid talking about her in my presence, a taboo topic. So, there’s nothing to be kept for the diary about my time inworld during the day.

At night I was at club Domme a Domme first. slave Luci (Luci Glendale) joined me there. Whe Flo came inworld, I returned home with slave Luci to play a skipee with three. But as Angelique showed up as well just when we has sat down, we played a skipe as teams.
After the game we went to Carnal and watched the silent crowd while chatting amoung us …. and while I played with Flo’s tape dress and with slave Holly’s restrictions. Angelique looked quite tempting that night. She knows how to play with her assets.
After Flo and Angelique had left for bed, I took slave Luci and slave Holly with me to club DeLust.

August 8th: Diomita at club Domme a Domme, at Carnal Intentions and at club DeLust with Angelique, Flo, slave Holly and slave Luci

Tuesday, August 9th, was another day I was inworld during the day several times, hopping over places, without any plan or intention. I met Dely (krysbia) at club Domme a Domme and chatted a while with her and went to her home with her to meet one of her subs.
In this blog that day my 2nd entry “Ehesklavin Diomita” had been published (read here https://wp.me/psPPu-8om). Mistress Jenny had taken me deep into subspace, just one day before she vanished. Sweet memories on one hand, painful memories as I miss her so much.
I made some changes on Tuesday, August 8th. I revised my profile to express how much I miss Mistress Jenny and added a pick “Ehesklavin Diomita” to my profile. I went off RLV and removed the nosering. I couldn’t touch it nor could I change settings on it and the relay was still set to auto which got me caught by devices a few times already. Furthermore I replaced my slave collar with my partnering collar. It feels right considering the turmoil of emotions I am still going through. And I miss my partner much more than my Mistress.

August 9th: Diomita at club Domme a Domme with Dely (krysbia) / Diomita portrait

In the afternoon, while I was standing around at DeLust, I met a nice dominant and I had a short play with her. She was very understanding and I did enjoy the time with her (no pictures or name here). I try to slowly feel my way out and find a way to handle the current situation without Jenny.

At night I had a skipee with Flo and slave Luci first. When we had finished slave Luci went off the bed, and Angelique joined Flo and me. We went to Carnal Intentions. We chatted again amoung us while watching the crowd and lsiting to some main chat, which was party funny.
After Flo and Angelique had left to bed both, I went to club DeLust. slave Holly came inworld and I summoned her to me. We spent some time at DeLust together catching up with our days. Then, back home, slave Holly got her fix. It’s just right to keep up her addiction to me.

August 9th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Flo and Angelique / at club DeLust with slave Holly

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