Two years old

18 Mar 2010 2 Comments

by jennymaurer in anniversary blog entries Tags: , ,

Two Years Old

 

As I have been approaching my two year rez day celebrations I have been pondering what and who have helped me reach it.

Without any doubt the most important person has been Diomita my Mistress, partner and best friend. We complement each other very well and quite often know what the other is about to say. We support one another and share a lot of very good times together. I will always be grateful for knowing you. Anybody who knows us understands how important we are to each other. Thank you my love.

There are lots of times that we are not together and for those times there are 2 things that have contributed to my enjoyment:

I have to admit it was the ability to explore my fantasies with bondage that brought me to SL. Some of the toys and scripts are exquisite and really do fire up my imagination. I have learnt things in SL that I have been able to bring to my RL and also test some of my limits likes and dislikes in a safe environment.

But aside from my best friend and Mistress the thing that makes SL fresh interesting and welcoming are my family and friends. They say in that life you cannot choose your family, only your friends. It is somewhat true in SL too. With a family such as ours members introduce their own members to the family and they become part of the unit. We are blessed right now to have a wonderful family and lovely friends of the family. I know many places where I can go now and I will always get a very friendly welcome, somebody to talk to and help with anything should I need it.

To me SL is a social place with the bonus of bondage play, without the all of the fantastic people I have met over the past 2 years, I could not be sure that I would still be here now.

So to everybody I know Thank you for tolerating the lag and making SL a place I hope to be for many years to come.

Love

Jenny Maurer (Laylady Lay)

Weired lovely people

16 Feb 2010 1 Comment

by diomitamaurer in Uncategorized

This time I want to report from a girl that stayed 2 weeks with us. She had a particular kink and I still am not sure why she choosed me for her game. But I am quite sure that I didn’t play her game to bad – and much more important I had fun myself.  She, let’s call her XY, IMd me when I was in a kidnapping RP sim. Funny thing is, I was about to play and was wearing a maid’s uniform and my shackles with all of my keys out. She IMd me, telling me that she has heard about me and that she’d be impressed about me and that she’s looking for fun but nobody would grab her and her keyes. And she told me that she spent one year more or less bound tightly and in forced mouselook. And that she’s unhappily owned. To make a long story short – instead of being caught myself, XY ended nicely tied and gagged in our house leashed by the fireplace.

In the following 2 weeks I learned about her kink and roleplay. She never cheats. She told me that she has seen her owner only rarely during the last year and that the attention that we gave her at one night was more than she got in over one year. But she will stay hers whatever happens unless sold or given to someone else by her. From that moment on she began to behave as a victim. She talked about getting home. She would never stay with me leashed at the fireplace as I don’t own her. I had fun because obviously she would stay exactly there for one year if her owner doesn’t care bout her. She said that she would submit to me to become my bound toy – if her former owner releases her. She talked OOC how she enjoyed the attention she got … and then a few moments later she blamed me for not releasing her in her roleplay.
Well, I didn’t release her. Instead I gagged her tightly with no IM and blindfolded her, when she began to growl at me. I could see her logging in and out again and again, just to get a word from me,  just to play her RP as a kidnapped victim. She began to attract me as she really seemed to love the play and as she promised to turn her loayality to me, if she would be released. And what is bad having a bound toy at home? Ready to play with it when you’re in the mood for it – or leave it when you’re not up for playing. If that is her kink, why not. I can easily handle such a low maintainence toy.

After 2 weeks XY who still had no single contact to her domme finally according to her own words set a deadline date to herself. She would give  herself as a toy to me and owe me her loyality if her domme wouldn’t appear within one additional week. Havening said this, she asked for a week off. Knowing her already a little bit, I refused and offered a day IMing. XY was upset, talked about missing trust and then she didn’t talk anymore, she really rp’d at her best. Knowing that she only seeks strictness I left her at her place. A few days later I got an IM telling me that I have lost her trust by mistrusting her by refusing the week off and that I could never get her loyality. And from her RP .. that loyality was the best she could offer.

I didn’t see the trap. I released her. Two weeks having a bondage toy ended. XY IMd me later telling me how much she enjoyed it. And that her last IM trapping me was a desparate last try as I didn’t release her before. Strange? Weired? Everyone has other kinks. Everyone seeks other satisfactions. Everyone should simply enjoy what SL can give to us. For XY is was her beeing kidnapped rp. Calling her domme with over 100 offline IM (I don’t know if that’s ture) I don’t blame her. I had fun with her … and honestly, if at least some of her stories about friends and about her domme were not a lie (leaving her one year without real attention??)

I think she ruined the chance to find people who care a bit for her. But then …. she will go on searching and maybe that is even more her kink than finding.

Dio’s 2nd year in Second Life Feb 11th 2010

10 Feb 2010 4 Comments

by diomitamaurer in anniversary blog entries Tags: , , , , , , , ,

My second year in SL is over today and I’ll start my third. It seems to me like yesterday when I remember my first days in SL. And it also seems like yesterday reading what I wrote in my letter to my family and friends on the occasion of my 1st rezz day. And now the 2nd year is already over.
I am happy that I can say that the base of my SL hasn’t changed in this 2nd year:

– I am still owned by Goddess Yasmin Heartsdale
– I am still spoiled by the love and devotion of my partner and Ehesklavin Jenny
– I am still part of a lovely large family
– I am still running my own family branch
– I am still exploring SL and myself
– I am still happy to be here

Now let’s have a look back to this 2nd year – just a short one. What did happen beside having fun together? What are the events that I want to remember when I’ll read these lines again after my third year.
There have been some changes in my family branch of Yasmin’s brat pack.

– My sister Fae vanished suddently and didn’t return a long while. She had been in hospital being seriously ill but she returned after several months. She left again very quickly as she fell in love in RL. That is a happy reason to leave and we’re glad for her. She’ll be back and explore herself on her own now. Well, at least I hope that she will be back as she told us.

– My sister Claire who is living in the Euro Brat timezone became closer to me and with permission of Goddess she submitted to me like Fae did before. Claire is a lovely sweet girl as her permanent tag expresses “Goddess’ sweet girl”. She is always smiling and I feel spoiled by her. Her happiness and mostly good mood is infectious.

– Pike and her wife Danii were my subs for about 3 months and they are still close friends of us. Unfortunately our focus in SL and some play preferences didn’t fit and Pike and Danii left us again consensually and friendly. And we see eachother from time to time. I still love you both and will not stop feeling close to both of you .

– During this 2nd year Goddess collared rabea – a new sister for me. Rabea is from Germany. We had a bad start as sisters and some arguments but later we became close as sisters and very close friends. And rabea is now a permanent part of my family branch. Jenny and myself are often together with rab and we enjoying playing together, shopping or sometimes just talking.

– rabea suddently left and we didn’t know what happened to her. Siobhan, her sub, spent a lot of time with Jenny and me and became part of my little family. Finally and without knowing about rabea’s return I collared Siobhan October 4th 2009. On rabea’s return – she has had a serious accident and spent several months in hospital – we didn’t turn time back and Sio stayed mine. Welcome to me and welcome to us, Sio. We love you.

– vanessa companied us during my 2nd year in SL. She is a very loyal sub and always a reason to smile. We don’t see her often enough unfortunately. But when she’s online her ways, her devotion and her constant demand for love and play is a very special expierience. Thank you, vanessa … Maurer’s Joy!

– Recently Goddess approved that Allana Mikadze may join our family. End of November 2009 Jenny and me found Alla helplessly at “Love hurts” and took control of her. Allana is a slave, owned and forced. Now she’s also officially our sub. Welcome to the Eurobrat family, Alla (who is from the US btw.). Welcome to Yasmin’s Brat Pack as a grandbrat.

– Last but as everyone know definitively not least, Jenny. Jenny was with me all the time in this 2nd year. No day where we didn’t talk or had contact per other media. I can’t imagine my SL without her and there’s no reason to imagine that. Thank you so much my dear wife and Ehesklavin.
So my part family did grow a little bit. It was one major part of my SL in this 2nd year and has become very important for me.

There have been some changes to Goddess’ family which I call my greater family. Besides rabea, who is from Germany, I got 2 other new sisters. Anna form the US and Valerie from Germany. Valerie was Goddess’ slave before. She was the observant of the decking in Yasminia and she grew until Goddess collared her has her brat. It is still simply great to be part of such a great family. Thank you, Goddess. I do love you and I would submit to you immediately again if I weren’t owned already.

Goddess and her brats

Some of my friendships have cooled down a little bit unfortunately, some became more intensive and I made some new friends. Any list might not be complete so I better don’t mention you all by name here.

What else is new and related to this 2nd year in SL? Maybe it is my life in two home sims. There is our beach house and our retreat Chez Maurer in Rivers Rock. And there is Yasmina. My sister Yar gave that sim to Goddess who establish our family sim there. I was permitted to build Hotel California in Yasminia. The hotel has provided some nice hours for play and we go there regularly for playing or visiting guests or introducing guests.

I could fulfill my intention to get back to Pandora’s box. Over several weeks I was there again quite often but then I couldn’t anymore …. and now I’ll intend take a next try.
Jenny and me got very close in this 2nd year. We had some nice adventures together. Particulary we love to do quests.

Jenny knows me very well and she now gets green lights. During a green light I switch and submit to her. She has always a new treat in stock for me. And together with rab or any other sister or friend …. well, it can be hard but also very exciting once I’m fully caught by roleplaying and switching to the sub role. As a sub Jenny brought me over some limits that I had before. Thank you, my love. Nonetheless once the green light is off Jenny is again my beloved slave.

I continued to collect pictures and my slideshows have quite a lot pictures in the meanwhile, several hundred and sometimes when it is quiet in SL.. well it is rarely… then I am content just to sit and watch the sildeshow. With the date and a short text displayed with each picture, that is really a journey into nice memories.
Friday nights are your Club nights. We spent them at the Bratz Club in RR. Virgo, a former sis and close friend, makes a perfect party of it each time.
Dancing leads me to intan. I replaced all dances that we had on the roof of “Chez Maurer” with on intan controller and now we can dance everywhere on our plot and choose the dance from the controller. A great invention !

During my 2nd year in SL I could celebrate a lot of anniversaries beginning with my 1st collaring day with Goddess, my one year collaring of Jenny and vanessa and my 1st wedding anniversary.

I am curious of my third year. Before all I wish that my little family stays together and I wish that I can celebrate 2nd anniversaries with my owner Goddess Yasmin, with my Ehesklavin, with vanessa and some 1st anniversaries. I am looking forward to further explore SL, to meet new friends, to intensify old friendships, to having exciting play sessions, to adventures, to enhance my bdsm expierence, to nice talks. There will be changes as life goes on in RL and SL. I just hope that I can avoid any drama as far as possible – let us always remember that we are here to enjoy and to live beyond the possibilities of our RL and that we are humans with emotions. I just hope that the base of my SL will stay like a solid rock.

Dear Jenny, Dear Goddess, dear family, dear friends, let me heartfully thank you all for your love and support. I wouldn’t be here without you. I wouldn’t be “Dio” without you. I couldn’t relax and enjoy SL without you. Thank you all for a great 2nd year in 2nd life. Many thanks!

Love
Diomita

Loyality and Happiness

06 Nov 2009 3 Comments

by diomitamaurer in Uncategorized Tags: ,

This will be my first blog which is not filled only with happiness. But it will nonetheless end happily.

Stonehaven has been my and our place since my early days in SL.
It’s the place where I met my owner, Goddess Yasmin Heartsdale.
It’s the place where I had my first house in SL.
It’s the place I met my slave who is now also my wife and partner, Laylady Lay – Jenny:-)
It’s the place where I met so many friends of mine.
It’s the place where I spent uncountable hours of fun, happiness and talks.
You can read what Stonehaven means to me also in our former blogs. It is at least a place to which I am emotional strongly conected.

A few days ago I got a message from Goddess in which she banned me and her family from going there. Honestly, I was shocked and irritated. What I was told later by others was that the reason for the edict was that Goddess couldn’t bear the fact of being eliminated form the Warden list of Stonehaven – a list I personally wanted to be on a very long time but never was.
Is it possible that I am owned by a domme who acts thus stubborn about such a minor item? And if so – what should I do? Should I argue? Should I flout the clear command? Should I try to mediate? Should I break my friendship with Dirk who owns Stonehaven? Well, Goddess didn’t demand that and she never did demand to break relations, she never forbids going  anywhere.
There is one simple answer: I will obey. I will not go there unless the edict is withdrawn.

Why is the answer that simple although I am emotionally hit by Goddess’ edict?
Because I would expect exactly the same of my subs. I would allow them to ask me about reasons, I would try to explain but I would expect my subs to accept my decision.
Because I trust in my owner. I trust in her love. I don’t say that she’s perfect – who is? I willingly submitted to her and would do it again. I get plenty of room and freedom to develop to what I am. And even if she’s wrong with her decision and edict – and I am not saying that she is wrong – I will obey.
And my friends that still go to Stonehaven will understand that I will not company them there as they know me and they wouldn’t expect anything else from me. And those who understand or accept that stay friends.
My place is with her. Point. Loyality.

Will I miss Stonehaven? Yes.
But I know that it is not only the place what makes it mystic to me. The people there made it to what it is for me. I feel spoiled and happy that I belong to Goddess’ family. Happiness is where my family is around. Without them Stonehaven will loose it’s magic for me. Thus I’ll keep it in my memories as the environment I had during a very good time. It is on many pictures that I saved. It is in my mind.
I will go on in SL with Jenny, with my family branch, with Goddess’ family with her friends as I have found – Happiness.

One year wedding anniversary

23 Oct 2009 5 Comments

by diomitamaurer in anniversary blog entries

Really one year? Time flies particulary when you’re having a good time. One year ago was our day. We married at Rivers Rock. Goddess held the speech and said our vows. After the wedding we had a one week honeymoon. The family had build a skybox for us and furnished it. Most of it was done by Fae. Thank you Fae. We had a great week. It was such a good time that we decided to keep the skybox. We bought the furniture, we added a detail here and a detail there. We added a dance floor on the roof of it. And we gave it a name “Chez Maurer”. CM is still our place when we retreat and it is located in the skies above our plot at Rivers Rock.

Dio6

One year with Jenny, my Ehesklavin, my partner, my wife, my fucktoy, my slut. Can you imagine such an all-in-one person? I can because she’s mine.
Jenny – she’s a quiet and patient sub, she’s obedient, she’s following my rules, she accepted to be controlled and I do control her.
Jenny – she’s demanding, she’s mean, she’s makes evil plans, she’s adventurous.
Jenny – she’s my partner, my wife, my friend, the one at my side.
Jenny – she’s my slut, my fucktoy, my horny slave.
Dio7

We have experienced a lot together, we developed together and we’re still desiring eachother. From being just my slave Jenny began to become more and more confident. Self-confident and knowing that I would do everything for her, she defined her place within our relation. She developed her domme side also. She will always be MY property, my collared Ehesklavin but …. I have also sub needs and Jenny knows about them and she plays with them and during what we call a “green light” she takes over. And sometimes she devolpes evil plans how to treat me. It’s all about trust. I can relax, can let things happen as she planed them. I know in advance about her deep love and devotion and that she won’t hurt me. It adds another dimension of bdsm playing for me.

For our one year anniversary we decided to spoil ourselves and made some pictures of us. We’re happy about them. We love memories like this.

Dio9

I look forward to every night that I can spent with you, my Ehesklavin.

I look forward to our second year as a couple in SL, my love.

I look forward to all the adventures we will expierence togehter.

Thank you for this year, Mrs. Jenny Maurer. I love you.

Almost a year.

09 Oct 2009 1 Comment

by jennymaurer in anniversary blog entries

I know Diomita has her own words to mark this special occasion.

I think that reaching a year as partners in SL takes some doing and more than that to reach a year and feel that you are still like newly weds takes something special.

This blog is not about looking back but about looking forward,,,, On the 24th of  October Diomita and I will have been partners for a year. We are blessed to belong to yasmin’s Brat pack and to have our own Euro Brat pack sub division. Our family is quite complete and very well balanced. We are fortunate to have many good people as our friends and we are never short of things to do.

That is why for the year ahead I hope we do not just continue to enjoy all the things we had,

but we make the most of  all the things we have and that we see more of our family and friends.

With Diomita I have my best friend by my side and we will look forward to lots of new friends challenges and fun together.

Thank you not just for the past year but the hope we have for many more to come.

I love you Diomita Maurer

by jenny your married slave

A Recommendation

17 Aug 2009 Leave a comment

by diomitamaurer in Uncategorized

I regularly read the blog of Shuggi (http://shuggi.wordpress.com). Shuggi was once my sister in the brat pack and I talk to her every once in a while when we meet in SL or have another issue that brings us together. One of these issues were her recent blog entries about using cuffs and rlv. I share a lot of her thoughts about it and recommend to read Shuggi’s blog. There’re also some other intresting entries like the one how to use the great force wear plugin of Sharie Criss for the amethyst collar that I use myself.

Coming back to cuffs and rlv. As mentioned above I share most of her thoughts. I particularly recommend reading the following acrticles

RLV is a bondage tool http://shuggi.wordpress.com/2009/08/13/rlv-is-a-bondage-tool
RLV & Commuication http://shuggi.wordpress.com/2009/08/08/rlv-commuication
RLV- Tools of the Trade http://shuggi.wordpress.com/2009/08/05/rlv-tools-of-the-trade
RLV uses – intro http://shuggi.wordpress.com/2009/08/05/rlv-uses-intro
Don’t break RR with Plugins http://shuggi.wordpress.com/2009/07/24/dont-break-rr-with-plugins

Thank you Shuggi !! There’s not much to add to your articles, at least not from my side.

Thoughts about being locked, about locking, about family, about my loyal beloved wife

26 Jul 2009 1 Comment

by diomitamaurer in Uncategorized Tags:

Those who know me know about my time as a guard at pandora’s box. I have an affinity to prisons. I even built my own prison which we call hotel California.
I just spent a week in one of the cells myself up there. What  happened?

Last week I met Goddess while I was online a few minutes in the morning. And she decided that she wanted to play with me later. So she took me and locked me up in the hotel. As I was about to go 2 days offline into RL that was no big story.
When I came back online on the weekend I realized that I had no inventory and no IM. Jenny was off at work. I could do nothing. I couldn’t sort my inventory nor could I talk to my family.

What do you do in SL when you’re isolated? Just run SL in the background of your pc and work on something else? Not my thing. Just stare at yourself in a cell? Not my thing. I never understood and will never understand why people like isolation in SL. But then, I don’t have to understand it. Everyone has their own kicks and that is the best of SL. But I know for sure – that isolation is definitively not my thing.

When I lock and tie people I really rarely prevent IM’ing as I don’t like that myself. I do it as a means of punishment for a limited time and I try to make sure that my victim is ok. Just a few days before Jenny and I released a girl after a few days as our timezones didn’t fit. I don’t like to do things with my subs and slaves that I don’t like myself, or that I can’t bear myself. Does that makes sense?

Well, anyway…I am who I am.
 
When Goddess and myself were online again a few days later, she realized my unhappiness and she gave me my inventory back and IM. I was happy and thought that now I could stay in the cell and talk to my family and friends and sort my inventory. The same day later in the evening the rare moment did come finally. Jenny was in my cell in the meanwhile and Goddess came online. Goddess came, opened the door to take us out and to start playing .. but RL caught me and I had to tell Goddess that I had no time. She locked the door of our cell again – and as the door implies some restrictions I lost my inventory and IM again.

What did follow were several days just talking with Jenny. We talked about everthing, we even played virtually in a virtual world (silly, I know). Some of my family came and played in front of the cell to entertain me – and me being in bad mood did not show my thankfulness but treated them bad with my anger. Some of them even entered the cell to give me a hug or to see me naked or to simply company me or us.
After 24 online hours Goddess’ and our timetable finally fitted and she came to us and freed us. No play – that is postponed.

Why do I write this blog? Mostly to send out some messages to those who read this blog:
1. I don’t blame Goddess at all. Plans in SL sometimes are disturbed by our RL and RL comes first. I am an owned girl. I will stay hers. And whatever happens the collar around my neck is welded on me.
2. I blame myself for being rude towards my family and friends. As soon as I realised i contacted them to apologise.
3. I am spoiled. Jenny did spend so much time with me. She even cancelled an RL meeting just to be with me and to hear my anger and to calm me. I love you so much, my wife !
4. I learned about family, about those who care and took time to visit us when we needed it.

Enough messages.

Dio

Goodbye to an old friend

01 Jul 2009 1 Comment

by jennymaurer in Exploring sims in Second Life Tags:

This week week we said goodbye to an old friend. Not a person but our first home together in Stonehaven. True Mistress Diomita owned it before I met her but it quickly became the centre of our life together and it holds a great deal of memories unfortunately the lag in Stonehaven became prohibitive and made even the simplest of scenes painful.

It was about this time that we exchanged vows and partnered. Our present from Goddess was to lock us up in a sky home in Rivers Rock. It was kitted out as a honeymoon suite and we both had such a good time there that we decided to rent it and the land it is on and the rest is history. As our family grew and developed our memories began to form in our new home and slowly the cobwebs began to form in our old home.

We kept the house in Stonehaven for 8 months after we moved out. Not wanting to say goodbye and cherrishing the memories we had. Until Dirk and the Lindens decided it was time to update and move the old homes. This was time now to cut our ties as we would not have any memories in the new place nor have reason to use it. So we cleared our belongings and said our goodbyes.

We have a lot of slide shows and pictures to remind us of our time there and to keep a place in our hearts for the old place. Anybody who knows us will be in a slide show somewhere and we have hundreds of pictures every one of them special.

The old place at stonehaven was just like a real friend for us both. It was there when we needed it, It gave us a place to go when we wanted and it did not complain if we had other things to do. Diomita and I have said to each other often that we have all the time in the world. We are comfortable with our relationship and know that if we do not have time for something today we will fit it in next time we meet.  We are both happy to be with the other or comfortable on our own and our partnership is based on friendship and not just the BDSM time we share.

A sign of true friendship is how comfortable you are when it goes quiet. How long does it take before you feel compelled to break the silence or are you happy to be a part of the scene around you even if your part is in the background. Just like the house in Stonehaven, a good friend will be there when you need them and I have the best.

Thank you Diomita.

June, 1st So I sit here in Stonehaven….

02 Jun 2009 3 Comments

by diomitamaurer in anniversary blog entries Tags: , ,

So I sit here in Stonehaven at our house up in the sky and try to write something about my wife and slave Jenny. This place hasn’t lost it’s special meaning to me, its magic somehow. I can see Jenny kneeling in front of me the day we met. I brought her up here and we talked. I was owned just a couple of weeks myself and began to get used to my new life in collared freedom (strange expression?). Her immediate devotion, her strong will and her whole way attracted me immediately. I was close to lock her away immediately that night to get her – but I didn’t. I let her go, I wanted her to decide free, willingly, without me around. She had to clear her own ownership to someone else who couldn’t care for her really. She came back. I locked her away. I got Goddess’ approval to take her. I collared her and this last year changed both of us.

So I sit here in Sotnehaven thinking of her. There’s no day not thinking of her, not being with her in one or another way. Life in SL is slow with all the lag – but quick, very quick on the other side. I can’t write down all the  adventures and expierences we made. Even loved places are gone in the meanwhile like the first family island. We used to go to our cages there before we logged off. There was a timer of 30 minutes for the cages. Thus when we got online again we had time to answer IMs, to sort stuff, to make plans what to do. Not the baddest way to start a night in SL. We do have other rituals nowadays. No goodnight without a big hug and little “xxx”. We discoverd dancing to the music of slowradio.com for us. We built our own little world where we live now with our small part family which is embedded in Goddess brat pack. We have other rituals, like Jen’s and mine weekly Zyngo competition.
And we still have this house up here in Stonehaven.

So I sit here in Stonehaven knowing that Jenny is in her cage again. Her back is covered with the marks of the whipping she got last night. She provoked it. She wanted to feel that I still force her to follow my rules. I keep promises – so I proved that I’m still prepared to force her. These last two weeks she lived totally as my sub again, restrained mostly and chastited. And she showed and proved once again her devotion to me. I threathened her to keep her there for weeks again. She certainly knows I can and she would not complain. But she certainly knows as well, that I will not – not now at least. I’ll take her out later tonight, will hold her in my arms. And I will unlock her chasbelt tomorrow night to celebrate her first year as my collared sub. RL will keep us from celebrating the exact date but we don’t care.
So I sit here in Stonehaven thankfully for the time we had and looking forward to the future thinking what to write about my wife and slave Jenny……

I love you.

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