Diary 2022 (121) September 4th/5th Within the family

Sunday, September 4th, I was inworld several times just for a short while. I could talk with Kitty in the morning, she is doing well. And I met Angelique in the afternoon for a few minutes. That day my post about the changes in our blog was published and I made the changes, that I announced in this post in the afternoon.
Nothing else to report about my acitivities duirng the day.
My night started with a skipee with Angelique, then two rounds with a skippe with Angelique and Flo. slave Alessi came by while we were still playing and after we had finished, slave Holly came inworld. we went to Carnal Intenions and filled the room I had again quite some leashes to hole …. and had even Angelique leashed and cuffed, which was a highlight of the night for me. After Flo had left we moved on to club DeLust for a bit. I had a chatty night, enjoyable. My family here in SL means a lot to me.

September 4th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions and at club DeLust with Angelique, Flo, slave Holly and slave Alessi

Monday, September 5th, was one of my more worse days. I was in-world several times during the day and it felt empty. In the afternoon slave Mercy showed up and educating her, controlling her and forming her did distract me. At club DeLust I had a bad griefing attack that prevented me from taling and kept me steadily busy closing popping up dialogues with friendsship offers and teleport offers and even blocking did not help. Also a relog did not help. Weired! After I moved to my hideaway with slave Mercy it was gone.
slave Lily also showed up when I was at club Domme a Domme with slave Mercy (Steelyeye Blinker) but I for got to take a picture.

September 5th: Diomita with slave Mercy / Diomita at club DeLust with Aneglique and slave Lily

At night Sarah Fhang, Angelique and slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose) were at home and we played a skipee as teams: Maurer’s (Angelique and I) against French (Sarah and slave Lily). Maurer’s won it. As Sarah went off to be after the game I took Angelique and slave Lily with me to club DeLust. When slave Holly came inworld, I summoned her to us.
It became another chatty night, relaxed for me and a good compensation for the emptiness I felt during the day.

September 5th: Diomita at club DeLust with Aneglique, slave Lily and slave Holly

Diary 2022 (120) September 2nd/3rd Full hands

There’s really not much to report about Friday, September 2nd. When I was inworld, I hopped over the clubs, I had a chat here and there, but my Second Life still eflt empty, my roaming around aimlessly. Luckily we had we had our regular party at night again, although that will become also an emotional event for me. But I hope that with time passing I will smile more when looking back to the great time Jenny and I had together. I had selected a theme fitting to the sepember outfit of the slaves:
It’s Friday again and we start into the weekend. This Summer is long, hence we enjoy another beach party. Wear not too much but let us be colourful and shiny or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us

Besides our midnight song “Drei Tage wach” we now have another fixed song “When the lady smiles” for the love of my Second Life Jenny “But when the lady smiles, I can’t resist her call. As a matter of fact, I don’t resist at all”. Although I mess Jenny badly, it is good to keep on having the party … and after all we had fun starting our weekend.

September 2nd – Friday night party: Diomita, Angelique, Flo, slave Holly, slave Alessi, slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto), Sarah Fhang, Baroness Capelo, Susan Blackrose (susanblackrose) (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Sara (SaraRandall), Bastet Starchild, Shy (shahniyah), Rhyn Nootan, Claven Albatros, Laura (laura00175), Jammy Serendipity (Jammy Voxel), Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

Saturday, September 3rd, I spent some time at DeLust. slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose) and slave Mercy (Steelyeye Blinker) joined me there. And later I also allowed Susan (Susanblackrose) to kneel at my feet. I set up slave Mercy’s Anavision and added another rule for her. Slowly I make her mine. It is nice to know that she slaves’ eyes are focused on me only. Before I logged off I took slave Mercy with me to the naughty girls room and allowed her to lick me .. knowing that she could (should) become addicted.

September 3rd: Diomita at club DeLust with slave Mercy, slave Lily and slave Susan

When I came inworld at night Flo, Angelique and slave Lily were playing skipee. I watched them untile they had finished. Sarah Fhang came by and we started another game with 5. While we played slave mercy and slave sakura joined us. we were quite a large group when we moved to Carnal Intentions. I had my hansd really full that night! And later slave Holly and slave Alessi joined as well. I chatted a lot and was distracted (which I appreciate these days). In the end just slave Alessi and slave Sakura were still with me and I took them to club DeLust.

September 3rd: Diomita at Carnal Intentions and at club DeLust with Sarah Fhang, Angelique, Flo, slave Lily, slave Mercy, slave Sakura, slave Holly and slave Alessi

Diary 2022 (118) August 28th/29th A new profile picture

Sunday, August 30th, I further worked on my appearance. I was not satisfied with the lipstick because of some reason the lipstick did not perfectly fit. In the course of trying to find out the resaon, I destroyed my avatar complete once again. In the end it was just one switch that caused me to try again and again to repair my head. Finall I found this switch (after almos 2 hours!). I aslo found the reason why the lipstick didn’t work .. and I couldn’t use it unfortunately but had to choose another one, that doesn’t shine like the one that didn’t fit perfectly.
After I had restored myself, I took another selfie and I changed my profile picture. I added Jenny to my profile picture toexpress that she will always be with me and that a part of her is in me forever.
After all, this filled my whole morning.

August 28th: Diomita’s profile picture

In the afternoon I had some time in-world and I spent it a club DeLust first. Mercy (Steelyeye Blinker) was there and we talked. Mistress Jenny had ordered me to submit to her a few month ago but the time difference between Mercy and me didn’t work out too well and Mistress Jenny stopped it. That afternoon I could sense that Mercy’s sub side was way stronger than her domme side and I allowed her to kneel at my feet. we continues talking and I began to lock her up and to take control. Then I took her home with me. I showed her our homesim, then I sat down at the decking to talk with Mercy while she worshipped my feet. I agreed to take her into trial knowing that the time difference of 6 hours is the worst it could be. But she was so eager – and it might work out. And she makes a nice addition.

August 28th: Diomita and slave Mercy

At night Flo was present and Sarah Fhang came by. We played a skipee togeter so that Sarah could learn it by playing. Angelique joined us at the table, later also slave Holly.
After the game we went to Psi’s realm, where slave Alessi, slave Sakura (SakuraMatsumoto) and a random other slave (who became my chair) joined us. Time went by quickly …. and after Sarah, Flo and Angelique had left I was alone and had my hands full with four. It was a relaxed night. I thought a lot of Jenny and pictured her watching us with a smile.
We returned home and slave Holly was allowed to lick me to a nice orgasm.

August 28th: Diomita at Psi’s realm with Sarah Fhang, Flo, Angelique, slave Holly, slave Alessi, slave Sakura and a random slave as my chair

Monday, August 29th, I met Kitty in the morning while I was kneeling at Jenny’s memorial. I was shortly absent and when I returned she was kneeling silently next to me. She told me and Jenny about her weekend in RL and that she enjoyed some time off.
I went visiting Ambre Singh’s newest exhibtion “Post Masters” and wrote a blogpost about it (read here) in the later morning.
At night I first met Angelique and we played a skipee. When slave Holly came inworld we went to club DeLust together. And after angelique had left, slave Holly got her fix. Then I spent the rest of the night with slave Holly and slave Alessi.

August 29th: Diomita and Kitty at Jenny’s memorial / Diomita, Angelique and slave Holly at club Domme a Domme / Diomita and slave Holly / Diomita at Carnal Intentions with slave Alessi and slave Holly

Diary 2022 (117) August 25th – 27th slowly returning to everyday life

Thursday, August 25th, I was inworld in the morning shortly and had a chat with our Kitty. She has fun at Fortress Mortice, one of the older places in SL in the meanwhile. In the afternoon, I met with slave Holly, who is sick at the moment and couldn’t stay long. But she decorated me well for half an hour at club DeLust.
At night I visited a place named “Shrine of Rememberance”. LL created it and you can plant flowers for loved ones you lost in SL. The place is full of flowers and I planted one for Jenny. I returned home and met with Sarah Fhang. I had given her a master key to my cuffs … and she took advantage of it. We had a little play and I look forward to more. Its been almost a decade that we played – and she didn’t forget anything, and intends to take me strictly. Another outlet for my sub side.
Flo and slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) were online. Flo played skipee alone and I joined her when Madame Sarah released me from my misery. Flo and I played a round, slave Sakura watched us. And when we had finished playing, slave Alessi came by. I went to club DeLust with Flo, slave Alessi and slave Sakura.

August 25th: Diomita at club DeLust with slave Holly / at the Shrine of Rememberance / Sarah Fhang with Diomita / Diomita at club DeLust with Flo, slave Alessi and slave Sakura

Friday, August 26th, I visited the new exhibition of Milena Carbone, Metamorphoses (read here). It was and still is a very intriguing exhibition that shows how artificial intelligence (AI) could change the arts in RL and SL. Writing about it distracted me well. Other than that I had a few chats and I had a shorter session with a domme. I am trying to find the right balance for myself and check who could provide it for me (and has fun so that it is win/win) while staying domme and heading the family.
At night we had our Firday night party. I had fixed the theme to : “It’s Friday again, time to celebrate the weekend. We will have another beach party tonight, hence wear something for the beach, preferably in purple or violet or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes for us.
What some may know and others don’t, purple, plum and violet tones were some of Jenny’s favourite colours, and hence it was also another theme for my beloved wife.

August 26th – Friday night party: Flo, Angelique, slave Holly, slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto), Diomita, Sarah Fhang, Cherry (Elenaslv Serenity), Domina Ansar, Baroness Capelo (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bastet Starchild, Filipa (Filip Huntsman), Jayson Dakota, Jammy Serendipity (Jammy Voxel), Laura (laura00175), Claven Albatros, Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

Saturday August 27th, I was inworld in the later afternoon. I went to a hypnosis place and I was curious and tried out a drink at the bar there. That turned out to be not a good idea. I got at new shape and my whole avatar got destroyed. Sh…..
I went to our loft skybox and slowly began to rebuild my avatar. Too bad that I hadn’t made a security copy lately. It was quite some work to get to myself again (and I had to cheat out RLV in addition). In the course of getting back to myself, I bought new hair and I got new makeup and in the end I was very satisfied with the result!

August 27th: Diomita’s new appearance

At night I met with Angelique and we went to club DeLust. Sarah Fhang joined us there and later slave Holly. When slave Alessi came inworld and Sarah had to leave we returned home for a skipee. Angelique and I won it against slave Holly and slave Alessi, but it was a close game (and hence fun). After the game we spent some time at Carnal Intentions.

August 27th: Diomita, Angelique, Sarah Fhang and slave Holly at club DeLust / Diomita, Angelique, slave Holly and slave Alessi at Carnal Intentions

Diary 2022 (116) August 22nd – 24th Quiet days

Monday, August 22nd, I spent some time inworld in the later morning visiting a gallery, La Maison d’Aneli (read here). I the afternoon I sat down at club DeLust and watched the time go by while writing the report about my visit.
At night Angelique was present. We went to club DeLust together and when slave Holly came inworld I summoned her to us. slave Holly had met up with Kitty in the morning. It still makes me happy that the two get along well. I spent the night at club Delust with Angelique and slave Holly and later when Angelique had left with slave Holly. We just talked while slave Holly was forced to stare at my crotch to remember her addiction that I am going to nuture. Before it was time for bed, I took slave Holly home with me as I had to pee.

August 22nd: slave Holly and Kitty at home / slave Holly’s view on me / Diomita at club DeLust with Angelique and slave Holly

Tuesday, August 23rd, I was inworld a few times during the day. I bought new sinful high heels, something I couldn’t walk in in RL and seeing me walk in them in SL makes me shiver. Lucikly I can’t fall here and even if, it would not hurt. I wanted them as many avatars are really tall in this virtual world, so now I can reach at least the chin of some tall avatars. I spent some time at club DeLust. And that’s it. I tended to my RL most of the time.
At night Flo, Angelique and slave Lily were at home and we played a skipee as teams – Flo and slave Lily won it. slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) watched us playing. We went to Carnal Intentions after the game and I had my hands full again literally. slave Holly also came inworld and I summoned her to us. She wasn’t feeling well that night and after Angelique and Flo had left for bed we returned home and brought her to her room.
And afterwards I went to Lochme with slave Alessi and slave Sakura for a bit.

August 23rd: Diomita at club DeLust / Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Angelique, Flo, slave Holly, slave Alessi, slave Lily and slave Sakura

Wednesday, August 24th, I was inworld a lot, yet often I was just standing a club DeLust and doing other things in RL. In the afternoon I had a play with a domme. No nothing really happened yet it was exciting and distracted me. I got new hair in the course of that afternoon. I clearly need to feel out of my current situation and find my own way.
At night I found a message from slave Holly, that she feels sick and might not come inworld. She had been feeling not that good the night before already. And Flo annonuced she would run late as well. Angelique was inworld and we met at club DeLust, we chatted and watched the world go by. Angelique liked my new hair style, though it makes me look older and more mature. I knew that but I like the effect, as I am not 20 anymore, not even 40 anymore. After Angelique left, I went to Avec Toi and spoiled myself with another outfit, an oufit that I saw at club DeLust.
slave Alessi joined me later that night and decorated me well at club Domme a Domme and at club DeLust, where Argi joined us.

August 24th: Diomita at club DeLust / at club Domme a Domme / at club DeLust with Angelique / new hair style / at club Domme a Domme with slave Alessi

Those days just went by.

A tribute to Jenny Maurer

Those who follow us in this blog might have an idea how difficult it was for me to write this text. If I missed anyone close to Jenny in this post, please forgive me – it was not intended!

My beloved partner, my property, my Mistress, my world and my best friend passed away unexpectedly in in July 2022.

There is no second life, we all have only one life. Second Life was Jenny’s and my heavenly escape. A place where we could try out ourselves, do things we’d never dared doing in RL, we could dress kinky and own a big island. We could be evil and nice. But still this second life was part of our one life.

Diomita and Jenny Maurer (2009/2010)

Jenny rezzed her avatar (Laylady Lay) in Second Life on March 19th, 2008, just 6 weeks after I had rezzed mine. We met each other the first time on May 21st, 2008 at a place called Stonehaven, which was at that time a very popular sim for bondage lovers, cage lovers and for other kinky people. I had a small house up in the skies of Stonehaven. I just had been collared by Yasmin Heartsdale and was a member of her “brat pack”.
Jenny and I, we both sat at the patio of Stonehaven. Frankly, this was a really ugly place, but it was popular. There was a wall with hooks where subs and slaves were leashed and put on display and a few chairs for the visitors who watched what was going on. We began to talk and that night I showed Jenny my house in the skies and the cage I had there. She wanted to go in spontaneously but I stopped her from doing so. Instead I promised her that I would allow it the next time we would meet. Jenny returned the next day and entered the cage. I kept her in there until June 5th, 2008. That day I collared her as my slave with the blessing of my owner those days, Yasmin. We had used her time in the cage to talk for endless hours, to get known to each other. We talked about our expectations, about our kinks, about D/s, about bondage and yes also about our RL. It was the beginning of a wonderful time we had together, more than 14 unforgetable years, in which we saw each other daily for several hours. When our RL prevented us to come into second life, we stayed in touch with other media.

Diomita and Jenny Maurer (2008/2009)

We got partnered in Second Life and married with a real virtual wedding ceremony (held by Yasmin) on October 24th, 2008. For our honeymoon we got a skybox which is still in the skies of our homesim today and which we named “Chez Maurer”.

We founded an own family within Yasmin’s brat pack. That’s why we called our family “Euro Brats”. I forced Jenny to be dominant towards the other slaves who I collared over the years. One of our first slaves was Santana Thibedeau, who we collared on November 22nd, 2008. He once had a play with other slaves of Yasmin’s brat pack and became a cat, a Kitty for a limited time. And she began to enjoy it that much, that we decided that he stays female. (S)he became Kitty Maurer.
Jenny enjoyed her dominance towards our subs and slaves more and more with time and she wanted more. She negotiated that I submitted to her for limited times, which we called a “green light”. After my release from Yasmin’s collar in 2011, Jenny convinced me to wear a collar again – her collar. And I agreed that we owned each other mutually. Later we fixed a day for my collaring: April 21st, 2013.
Our family changed … slaves and subs came and left. In 2012 we collared Angelique. Angelique Maurer became a close family member. She became our niece and as our niece she literally grew, she persued her own way and her own way of roleplay. And more and more we became her aunts, providing a stable family and base for her just like in RL. Angelique was never officially released by us, and we loved to have her around – as our niece. In these hard days of grieving for Jenny, I am very happy to her her around.
And there is our Flo. We enslaved Flo on Nov 29th, 2013 – she had no chance once we got our claws into her. On the occasion of her 7th collaring anniversary in 2020, we promoted our long standing friend and slave to “Maurer’s Housekeeper”, a position with more duties and not more rights. Thank you, Flo.
With the years going by, Jenny’s dominant side developed and became stronger and stronger. On the eve of our eighth wedding anniversary, October 23rd, 2016, I finally fully submitted to Mistress Jenny and became her married slave, her Ehesklavin for the rest of our time together. I still owned her as well but since that day Mistress Jenny was in charge. She was the one who granted green lights, the limited times when I was allowed to dominate her, and when she could let her hair down and relax being mine for a couple of days. As a true dominant, she made her life comfortable and kept me as the head of our family – she was smart.

Jenny and Diomita Maurer’s 10th wedding anniversary October 24th, 2018 (witnessed by our niece Angelique)

We had our own homeplace, a homestead named Mount Everest, since June 2011. We occupied 1/2 of our homesim and had rented out 1/4 to Sarah Fhang, a friend of ours who we knew from our Stonehaven times. And another 1/4 was rented out to Virgo Babii and Tyra Sciarri, also longterm friends from that time. Virgo is the dj of the legendary Friday night party, that is celebrated every Friday since 2008 and took place (and still takes place) on our sim since we owned it. Jenny loved the Friday night parties with which we started into our weekends. She hated to miss them due to RL shift work. We used to talk about a theme for the party every Thursday and she came up with great ideas.

We were inseparable, a domme couple, yet everyone around us knew that I was Mistress Jenny’s married slave. We were embedded in a great community of family and friends: Claven Albatros, Baroness Capelo, our stepdaughter Ebony, Argi Boa, Starbright Wingtips and the whole pixie gang and many others. In 2021 we collared slave Holly and Jenny was pleased owning her. Just lately we also enjoyed the presence of slave Alessi (who is not collared by us) and we became closer with our domme friend Dely (krybia).

Jenny was a wonderful person. She was always polite and tolerant. I learned a lot from her. She took things not too seriously. She wanted that all around her had fun. She insisted that we never forced a slave or sub to stay, that we never collared someone against their will. She had wit and creativity. She taught me being more “British”. Since she had retired in RL in 2021, Mistress and I had more time in the afternoons, more time for togetherness. Mistress Jenny strengthened her position as my owner. She pushed me deep into subspace and I enjoyed it. She did prepare her steps. Nothing happened by accident. Yet she also kept her spontaneity and she took care of me so that I never doubted her love. She loved teasing me and keeping me on my toes.

Dominance is the ability to create a hunger in someone that’s so strong they will do anything, anytime, anywhere just to please you. Jenny created this hunger in me. I really loved, admired and worshipped her. I craved to please her and she always confirmed that I pleased her always and anytime and anywhere. She was very proud to own me and I was proud to be hers. But most of all we were close friends. Jenny was – and will always be (!) – the love of my Second Life. We enjoyed our time in SL, that was a part of our RL. We had just great years, memories that I will value for the rest of my life until I see Jenny again on the other side.

We respected our privacy. Although we talked a lot also about our RL, about our children as well as about projects, about food, about vacations, about work and about everyday life we never exchanged pictures of us, phone numbers or adresses. Thus we kept the picture of each other that we had in Second Life. We lived our Second Life. When Jenny didn’t show up anymore, I had gloomy premonitions that something bad had happened. I am thankful that I got certainty when someone close to Jenny in RL contacted me to tell me that she passed away.

Jenny will be missed not only by me but also by her family and friends in real life as well as in second life. I myself miss her badly, every day. I talk to her, every day. I think of her, every day. I feel her close, every day. I feel her unconditional love every day. Jenny will stay unforgotten not only by me. Rest in peace, my love.

I have to make some decisions now that I am a widow in Second Life. An important chapter in my real life and in my second life has ended. I am more than thankful for my time with Jenny. My second life will go on. I won’t let down our family and friends in this virtual world. Jenny will always be with me, she will watch me from the other side. And as we were inseparable a part of her will live on in my real life and in my virtual existence until I see her again.

Farewell my love, rest in peace, Jenny

Diary 2022 (115) August 19th – 21st We try to keep going

Friday, August 19th, I had another day seeking an aim for my second life. I was in world several times during the day. Once again I hopped over places. I saw a nice black outfit on a domme at club DeLust. It turned out to be a new relased outfit of XO, a favourite shop of Jenny and me. I got the new outfit, in particular as it fitted perfect for the theme that I had selected for our party at night:
It’s Friday again and we will continue having our party to start our weekend properly. Jenny loved shiny black clothes. So dress up in shiny black or come as you are (even naked). DJ Virgo is spinning the tunes.
You may want to stop by at Jenny’s memorial monument, it is right opposed to the house. Please leave a message – and include her into your prayers.
I had one play in public with another domme at club DeLust in the earlier afternoon. It was strange for me, yet I admit it was exciting nonetheless (no pictures here). When I returned in the later afternoon I went to club Domme a Domme and watched what was going on there with one eye (and there was entertainment). Again and again I get IMs even from people who I didn’t know, but who knew Jenny. She was respected by many.

When I returned at night to prepare for the party I had a nice surprise. Angelique moved back in at home. It is good to have her back and close to me, in particular these days. After a visit at Jenny’s memorial we went to club DeLust to kill some time and to watch people.

The party was very eomtional for me. Jenny loved our party. It was and still is the start of the weekend. Jenny loved it full – and it was full for her and for me, in who she will live on forever until I will see her on the other side. We had fun, we danced and we shared good memories. I was thankful for the support I experienced. It was good to keep up the traditional party. I enjoyed although I had some severe crying attacks.

August 19th – Friday night party: slave Holly, Diomita, Angelique, slave Alessi, Ebony Massey, Sarah Fhang, Baroness Capelo, Claven Albatros, Betina Sands, Dely (Krysbia), Liz Swann (lizswann), Perla S. Topaz (Perseo Topaz) (upper row), Della Randt, Starbright Wingtips, Bastet Starchild, Filipa (Filip Huntsman), Kawaii Suki, Jayson Dakota, Adumadan Biziou, Haly Shinn, Virgo Babii, Virgo Babii (lower row)

August 19th – Friday night party – a picture taken by slave Holly

Saturday I started into my day with confidence that I will feel my way out. I made some decisions and I was inworld several times that day. I even had two shorter plays as a sub. Both dommes were quite understanding (and “nice”) but somehow it felt so wrong. I know it is me who is not ready for it. I have to give it more time. My confidence shrank and I knelt at Jenny’s memorial again with crying attacks. Somehow even a virtual place for my grief in RL and SL provides some solace.
I met slave Holly and Angelique in the later afternoon and we talked a bit until I had to leave for dinner. I took slave Holly to the lamp outside ot the house and locked her there. She made a nice picture of herself.

At night I played a skipee with Angelique, Flo and slave Lily (Lily Bloodrose). slave Holly, slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) and slave Alessi came also inworld. We went to club DeLust that night. I literally had my hands full and I felt bad that I had not enough time to talk properly with all. I need to develop a strategy or plan to make enough time with all of them – and to have time for myself as well. My positive energy of the morning was gone. But I have to be thankful for what Jenny and I had together and that I am embedded in a loving family with many friends.

August 20th: slave Holly locked at the lamp at home / Diomita, Angelique, Flo, slave Alessi, slave Holly, slave Lily and slave Sakura at club DeLust

Sunday, I met with Kitty in the morning at Lochme and we hopped over a few empty places. In The Red Room we had fun watching a sub getting transformed into a ATM. Unfortunately we failed getting some money out.
slave Holly and I had planned to meet in the afternoon. I took her to club DeLust and we talked how we could find back the easiness we had before. I still know what which buttons I have to press and I used my knowledge. When I had her where I wanted her I took her to our (now mine) secret place and made her lick me. slave Holly and slave Alessi will get addicted to my sweet poison. I need that now.

August 21st: Diomita and Kitty at Lochme / Diomita and slave Holly at club DeLust and at the secret place (pictures by Holly)

At night I was early and I had a little roleplay at club DeLust. “Someone” grabbed my RLV, restricted me, tranquilized me and threatened me to become her sealed rubber object to be shown around:
Just imagine yourself totaly encased in rubber just a rubber anonymous thing. All 3 holes plugged and occupied, those pouty lips sucking a large rubber dildo gag so long and wide you’re kept silent unable to moan or make a noise, the other 2 holes plugged with shocking vibes always keeping you on edge and horny but never able to orgasm just melting your mind into being a horny rubber dolly, kept always totally encased with heavy restraints and strict restrictions, always showed off as a shiny rubber doll on a leash for the world to admire. I can coat the plugs for all 3 holes with ghost pepper sauce with all plugs filled with more sauce that they self lubricate with more sauce on timer.”
Jenny would have loved it! She always said that people in SL don’t dare using cuffs, keys and RLV as they did in the earlier years of SL. My “Someone” was not just evil. I explained that I am needed now and so she just teased me verbally – she was “An Individual” as I was restricted after being tranquilized by her. Most probably she will try again to capture me.
I returned home as I expected the family and spent some time at Jenny’s memorial, telling her about my little adventure – and had the first crying attack that day. It slowly becomes bearable. And it is good to speak with Jenny.

Flo, Angelique and slave Holly showed up and we played a skipee as teams. And Ebony came by and spread kisses everywhere.
After the game we went to Psi’s realm, where Alessi joined us, then to Carnal Intentions and finally, after Angelique and Flo had left for bed, I took slave Alessi and slave Holly to club DeLust where Argi joined us for a bit.

August 21st: Diomita at Psi’s realm, Carnal Intentions and at club Delust with Angelique, Flo, Argi, slave Holly and slave Alessi

For me Jenny seems to be everywhere, watching me … and smiling to me with a nod. And nonetheless I miss her so badly.

Diary 2022 (114) August 16th-18th In terrible grief for Jenny

Tuesday, August 16th, I spent some time inworld in the afternoon. I met Lily (Lily Bloodrose) at club Domme a Domme. I met Faye at Jenny’s memorial. I made some slight changes at Jenny’s memorial monument .. and I revised the orientation map at the landing point of our sim by adding the memoiral. Other that that, I had a few chats with friends …
At night I played a skipee with slave Lily and Angelique. Then we went to club DeLust where I stayed the rest of the night. Flo joined us there shortly before Angelique left to bed.

August 16th: Diomita and slave Lily at club Domme a Domme / Diomita at home at Jenny’s memorial / Diomita and slave Lily at the landing point / Diomita at club DeLust with Angelique, Flo and slave Lily

Later slave Alessi also joined us and after Flo had left as well to get some sleep, Argi came by.

August 16th: Diomita at club DeLust with Flo, slave Lily, slave Alessi and Argi

That day was not really a good one for me, though I had less crying attacks missing the love of my Second Life. I missed Jenny badly and was not the best company. Nonetheless Flo and later also Argi succeeded to make me smile. Thank you.

Wednesday, August 17th, I went on a simploring tour in the later morning and early afternoon. I visited Florence, a lovely sim with lots of great views to take pictures and with countless places to sit and watch the world and time flow by (read more about it here).
I spent the rest of my free time in the afternoon quite aimlessly again. I hopped over sims, checked landmarks, I sorted my inventory, I picked up useless prims at home, I met Dely (krysbia) and slave Luci (Luci Glendale) at club Domme a Domme, and finally I spent some time sitting at Jenny’s tree trunk and looking at her memorial. I was still in a turmoil of emotions.

August 17th: Diomita simploring Florence / Diomita at club Domme a Domme with slave Luci / Diomita at home

There’s not much to report about my night. I ran late due to my RL. Flo was inworld and playing skipee. Flo had left a candle at Jenny’s memorial. Thank you, Flo. It breaks my heart to see the pain that our family is going through.
slave Alessi came by, We played a round of skipee, then Flo had to leave for bed. I took slave Alessi to club DeLust for some time, then I returned home with her. I had in mind to visit a gallery, but it was not ready installed yet. I met Dely (krybia) at club Domme a Domme. She comforted me. And I had a longer IM with Yasmin Heartsdale, who also tried to comfort me in my grief …. no pictures of that night.

I knew I was not easy to handle these days, my grief was still too intense and my crying attacks became worse again.

Thursday, August 18th, I roamed over places again quite a lot. I had IMs and chats, I saw Ebony and Dely (krybia) and I re-visited “New Day” by Bamboo Barnes (read here) as there were 3D art objects by Kerupa Flow added to the exhibition. I revised and finished the blogpost.

At night I first played two round of skipee, one with Angelique and Flo, and one as a team with Angelique against Flo and slave Alessi. slave Sakura (sakuramatsumoto) joined us and watched.
We went to club DeLust but didn’t stay long there. Flo couldn’t enter as it was too full. Hence we moved to Carnal Intentions. Later, Angelique was already off to bed, Argi joined us – and she was quite entertaining again. A good distraction!

August 18th: Diomita at club DeLust and at Carnal Intentions with Angelique, Flo, Argi, slave Alessi and slave Sakura

I knew that time heals wounds and that some day I would remember the good times Jenny and I had together without crying but with a smile. But I was far from that point although I cried less. My family supported me, they tried hard to make me smile (and succeeded a few times). I was there for them. When I was alone …. Second Life felt empty for me. I missed Jenny terribly.

Enjoying Bondage August 2022 – Twins and triplets at Psi‘s realm

For the Enjoying Bondage series I created another collage for August 2022. The theme for the slaves was mixed. slave Holly and slave Alessi were twins, well amost twins *winks*. In the course of the first days of August I began to change slave Sakura as well in this outift. She still misses the nipple rings and bells as well as the golden chastity belt to be a real triplet, but it’s close enough. Flo got a tape dress with many different bondage opportunities, supposed I have enough tape rolls on stock.
The base picture of the Enjoying Bondage collage was taken on August 2nd at Psi’s realm and shows me with Flo enclosed in black duct tape, slave Alessi, slave Sakura and slave Alessi. I added the triplet – slave Alessi, slave Sakura and slave Holly at the right (from August 7th at Psi’s realm) and Angelique and pet Flo (in silver duct tape this time) from a visit at Carnal Intention on August 6th.
So here it is, sadly without our Mistress Jenny…

Enjoying Bondage August 2022 – Twins and triplets at Psi‘s realm (from left to right): Angelique, pet Pet, Flo, slave Holly, Diomita, slave Sakura, slave Alessi and the triplet Alessi, Sakura and Holly

Diary 2022 (113) August 14th/15th A monument for Jenny Maurer

Sunday, August 14th, I spent again quite some time in Second Life, roaming over sims aimlessly. I had a few IMs, I talked with Del (Krysbia). I met Kitty and later Flo shortly for a game of skipee.
I made another holographic statue of Jenny and placed it at our skybox. And I placed one in the house. Jenny will always be with me in my mind. While I was standing around I searched the marketplace and finally found what I was looking for. A big obelisk with full perm rights. I bought it and looked at home for a central place for it. I placed it near to Jenny’s tree trunk, then I added my 2 favourite pictures of Jenny and me to it making the obelisk a monument for Jenny, a place for my and our grief. I added some candles and a condolence book to leave messages. Finally I added a pond, knowing that Jenny loved the pond in her garden.
I also sent out an announcement to the family and friends group about Jenny’s unexspected death. That Sunday I cried a lot as the finality sinks in more and more. There is only one life.

August 14th: Diomita at Jenny’s monument at home / Diomita kneeling next to Mistress Jenny’s holographic statue in our skybox

At night I played a skipee with slave Alessi and Angelique. slave Holly came in-world while we played. It was a close game (Angelique won it). We went to Carnal Intentions. Argi joined us there later. We just talked amoung us and watched the world go by.

August 14th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions with Angelique, Argi, slave Holly and slave Alessi

Monday, August 15th, I visited an exhibition that opened Friday, August 19 – “New Day” by Bamboo Barnes (read here https://wp.me/psPPu-8t6). What a coincidence. A new day has always something mystical if you think about it. It is a start, it is embracing what it has on stock for us. Not that I can ever forget the love of my Second Life. The last 14 years were a great journey together with Jenny. But with every new day, I think about what to do now. Some decisions that I have to take are starting to crystallize. They are becoming a little clearer from day to day.

I changed my home point at our sim. Mistress Jenny and I just had moved it to the sun terrace of our house. Now I moved it to Jenny’s monument. So that I can send an hello to her in heaven every time I return home. I miss her terribly.
Angelique came by and added a rose to Jenny’s monument.

August 15th: Diomita and Angelique at Jenny’s monument

At night I met Angelique at Jenny’s memorial monument. She was dressed really tempting and was wearing cuffs. I locked her hands and took her with me to club DeLust. Actually she got some attention being leashed to her aunt. When Flo came inworld we returned home to see her. She had issues to wear her tape dress again. We helped Flo to get back into her latex dress which was quite some work .. When we finally had fixed it we played a game of skipee, then we went to Carnal Intentions and watched. I put Flo in a full tape encasement, and I dared to have Angelique leashed to me again.
Flo left for bed and slave Alessi joined us. We stayed a bit longer at Carnal Intentions, then we moved on to club DeLust where we spent the rest of the night.

August 15th: Diomita at Carnal Intentions and at club DeLust with Flo, Angelique and slave Alessi

SL feels so different for me. I miss Jenny a lot. I miss talking with her about others, about plans, even about the weather. Everything is so different now. I feel the support of my family and friends though. They worry about me – and they need me (I think).

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